Even THINKING about changing jobs is uber stressful! O_O
I can't keep WAITING to succeed. I keep waiting to make more sales/income/profit at my current job so that I can justify asking for a raise. ($250 a week BEFORE taxes is just NOT a living wage, especially for a full-time job *sai*)
So I applied for a Citibank customer service job last night (no sales), and I got a call back surprisingly quick. They just called me and set up a phone interview for today at 5:20PM. Eeks! Scary!
I should make a list of why getting a new job scares me.
+ Quitting/giving up too soon?
+ wasting time listing the last few months?
+ Love my current job. :\
There are a million reasons why moving from my current job scares me, Maybe I will list them later, but right now even STARTING that list is giving me anxiety headaches, and I don't need to have that stressed mindset when I'm doing my phone interview in a few hours.
I guess the main reason I want to move from my current job is the money issue. I'm 31 years old now. I want to be able to afford to move out of my dad's basement and get my own house. The thing that bothers me the most is that I feel kinda like a liar. I've always said that money doesn't matter as long as you love your job ... However, when it's not even a living wage (technically I make less than minimum wage right now) it just can't happen. It sucks because I HIGHLY enjoy my job that I have right now, and I'm very good at it. But there are months when I actually COST the company money to employ me (in other words, the profit I generate is less than the money it costs to pay me for that month) and the months I *DO* make enough, I only make a few hundred dollars at most over my salary costs. :[
Hell, maybe I'm worrying for nothing. Maybe I'll totally bomb this interview tonight, or maybe citibank will say "no way I want that crazy working here again!" I guess I will just wait and see.
I will write another entry tomorrow (hopefully) detailing why I'm afraid to leave my current job and with more info and thoughts about this. I will also tell you all how the interview went (although I doubt if they'll confirm the job yes or no over the phone, we shall see.)
So I applied for a Citibank customer service job last night (no sales), and I got a call back surprisingly quick. They just called me and set up a phone interview for today at 5:20PM. Eeks! Scary!
I should make a list of why getting a new job scares me.
+ Quitting/giving up too soon?
+ wasting time listing the last few months?
+ Love my current job. :\
There are a million reasons why moving from my current job scares me, Maybe I will list them later, but right now even STARTING that list is giving me anxiety headaches, and I don't need to have that stressed mindset when I'm doing my phone interview in a few hours.
I guess the main reason I want to move from my current job is the money issue. I'm 31 years old now. I want to be able to afford to move out of my dad's basement and get my own house. The thing that bothers me the most is that I feel kinda like a liar. I've always said that money doesn't matter as long as you love your job ... However, when it's not even a living wage (technically I make less than minimum wage right now) it just can't happen. It sucks because I HIGHLY enjoy my job that I have right now, and I'm very good at it. But there are months when I actually COST the company money to employ me (in other words, the profit I generate is less than the money it costs to pay me for that month) and the months I *DO* make enough, I only make a few hundred dollars at most over my salary costs. :[
Hell, maybe I'm worrying for nothing. Maybe I'll totally bomb this interview tonight, or maybe citibank will say "no way I want that crazy working here again!" I guess I will just wait and see.
I will write another entry tomorrow (hopefully) detailing why I'm afraid to leave my current job and with more info and thoughts about this. I will also tell you all how the interview went (although I doubt if they'll confirm the job yes or no over the phone, we shall see.)