April Fools day is dumb, new phone, & Angst Follow up
Ok, whomever thought it was FUNNY to break amazon's book-listing system as some sort of twisted april fools day joke is a jerkface! :p pppphhhttt! I'm TRYING to WORK here *grumps*
In other news, both Jenn and myself got blackberry phones over the weekend! It's pretty awesome! :) My blackberry messenger PIN is: 315ED144 Feel free to add me if you have blackberry messenger.
I'd like to extend a THANK YOU to all of you who commented on my last, dramatastic entry. It's nice to know that I have such a supportive f-list. Jenn & I talked it out a little last night, and we have an appointment with our therapist tonight, so I hope we can get everything resolved.
I don't usually bring such drama to LJ, but I was feeling very scared, overwhelmed, and alone. Usually when Jenn & I have issues, we talk it out until we both feel better. This time, I felt completely helpless and scared as hell to talk to Jenn. I had screwed up and I didn't know how to make it better. I was so afraid that Jennifer would leave me, and I knew that no matter what promises I made or what I said, she would be completely justified in doing so after my actions and my deception.
So when I got to work, I wasn't able to concentrate at all, and I kept randomly starting to cry, so I took a few minutes and pounded out that LJ entry, and getting it written out and posted helped me get through the rest of the day at work.
Thankfully, Jenn & I talked it out a bit last night, and she told me she's not going to leave me. Also, after a good night of sleep, I feel a little better. Hopefully the therapy session will go well tonight.
In other news, both Jenn and myself got blackberry phones over the weekend! It's pretty awesome! :) My blackberry messenger PIN is: 315ED144 Feel free to add me if you have blackberry messenger.
I'd like to extend a THANK YOU to all of you who commented on my last, dramatastic entry. It's nice to know that I have such a supportive f-list. Jenn & I talked it out a little last night, and we have an appointment with our therapist tonight, so I hope we can get everything resolved.
I don't usually bring such drama to LJ, but I was feeling very scared, overwhelmed, and alone. Usually when Jenn & I have issues, we talk it out until we both feel better. This time, I felt completely helpless and scared as hell to talk to Jenn. I had screwed up and I didn't know how to make it better. I was so afraid that Jennifer would leave me, and I knew that no matter what promises I made or what I said, she would be completely justified in doing so after my actions and my deception.
So when I got to work, I wasn't able to concentrate at all, and I kept randomly starting to cry, so I took a few minutes and pounded out that LJ entry, and getting it written out and posted helped me get through the rest of the day at work.
Thankfully, Jenn & I talked it out a bit last night, and she told me she's not going to leave me. Also, after a good night of sleep, I feel a little better. Hopefully the therapy session will go well tonight.