the return to Vana'Diel
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thank you for reading the warning :P
As most of you know Final Fantasy xi (ffxi i'll call it the rest of the time) ate up a few years of my life and actually had a big effect on me back in the day. I quit for about two years and about two weeks ago i decided to start again with my brother and two other friends. It's hard to explain the feelings it is taking a step into that world again, nostalgia at times from all the memories i've had with the game and even things that happened in my life when i was playing the game. In a sense i feel guilty going back to play without Alli being there, it just seems kind of empty and even to this day i still search the name Muir, or Circo just to see if she pops up; in reality i know she'll never go back WoW took that spot up. Other then my somewhat triumphant return to Vana D not much else has been going on with my life, trying to pawn off some of my stuff to get outta debt so if anyone wants a psp and a few games hit me up :P not really anything exciting or depressing going on at the moment, just living this thing called life having fun with its ups and downs.
The other day while taking a shower (its a good place to think :P) i remembered waaaaay back when we were playing Taiko and we went to practice at some temple we usually didnt practice at. Well while there henry was singing and stuff liek usual and we started talking just about stuff in general and the topic of love came up. and henry being the loving man he is just started asking people if they've ever fallen in love and what not. and he asked me and i answered more or less with a no "Havent you ever had that feeling in your heart? just like its missing something? like a hole that has to be filled?" i answered him again with a no but i can tell in his face he didnt believe me. At the moment i didnt know what the hell he was talking about, just didnt make sense to me if you will. Lately i've realized just what he was he was talking about; and yeah it kinda sucks. I'll just be sitting at home by myself (jessy and daniel work wierd hours so we very rarely are all in the house at one time) and thinking to myself like damn, this sucks. well, thats my thoughts on that one :p
I've been trying (and failing) at getting back into the swing of drawing everyday. theres just something about it that i cant do for some reason. doesnt matter how important it is to me i just cant do it... meh i'll find my niche one day.
well i ran out of random crap to talk about, i'm gonna go cook some potatos now...
-Dyoji
thank you for reading the warning :P
As most of you know Final Fantasy xi (ffxi i'll call it the rest of the time) ate up a few years of my life and actually had a big effect on me back in the day. I quit for about two years and about two weeks ago i decided to start again with my brother and two other friends. It's hard to explain the feelings it is taking a step into that world again, nostalgia at times from all the memories i've had with the game and even things that happened in my life when i was playing the game. In a sense i feel guilty going back to play without Alli being there, it just seems kind of empty and even to this day i still search the name Muir, or Circo just to see if she pops up; in reality i know she'll never go back WoW took that spot up. Other then my somewhat triumphant return to Vana D not much else has been going on with my life, trying to pawn off some of my stuff to get outta debt so if anyone wants a psp and a few games hit me up :P not really anything exciting or depressing going on at the moment, just living this thing called life having fun with its ups and downs.
The other day while taking a shower (its a good place to think :P) i remembered waaaaay back when we were playing Taiko and we went to practice at some temple we usually didnt practice at. Well while there henry was singing and stuff liek usual and we started talking just about stuff in general and the topic of love came up. and henry being the loving man he is just started asking people if they've ever fallen in love and what not. and he asked me and i answered more or less with a no "Havent you ever had that feeling in your heart? just like its missing something? like a hole that has to be filled?" i answered him again with a no but i can tell in his face he didnt believe me. At the moment i didnt know what the hell he was talking about, just didnt make sense to me if you will. Lately i've realized just what he was he was talking about; and yeah it kinda sucks. I'll just be sitting at home by myself (jessy and daniel work wierd hours so we very rarely are all in the house at one time) and thinking to myself like damn, this sucks. well, thats my thoughts on that one :p
I've been trying (and failing) at getting back into the swing of drawing everyday. theres just something about it that i cant do for some reason. doesnt matter how important it is to me i just cant do it... meh i'll find my niche one day.
well i ran out of random crap to talk about, i'm gonna go cook some potatos now...
-Dyoji