Nostalgia
nos·tal·gia
-noun
a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.
Its funny really; as most of you probably already know I'm finally moving out of David's house and into a new place with Jessy and his brother Daniel. It's what people call a life changing experience; but it really doesn't feel like it to me. I'm not sure why, it just feels like something that I had to do, nothing really magical. I guess that will change when I actually move into the new place. That being said; I was packing all my stuff so it'd be easy to unload to the new place. Well I have this plastic storage container thing that I've had since I got kicked out of my moms house. Its more or less just a giant plastic tub that i threw a bunch of stuff that didnt really have a place into. So, I start cleaning it out so I can load shirts into it and other random clothing and i start noticing a lot of stuff. Stuff that i haven't seen for years, one thing that really got me was these two cards stuck at the bottom of the bin, both birthday cards. so what? Well, these two cards more or less summed up some of the best times in my life for me one of them i opened had a Psycho Le Cemu Ticket and a picture of the Japanese Club Fan dancers in it, when i graduated highschool and turned 18. The other Had an invitation to a photography exhibit, and a simple black paper crane, and a blue one. The photo exhibit is somewhat special... for its own reasons. The black crane was made for me by Alli when we were going out, the blue one is when she showed me how to make one; sorry Girly i forgot how ^^; As i dig a bit more in the bin i find a bunch of pictures from Anime OD and the First Expo, my first two cons. One that took me way back was this shoebox of baseball cards i've had since i dont know when. My uncle anthony gave them to me when i was really young, and over the years they just sat there. I looked through them a bit and found a lot of really memorable things like Hotwheels, and lego parts. If you knew me any time when i was younger, then you know these are a major i repeat major part of my child hood. I also found in that box of cards Gundam TCG cards, which a lot of people didnt know existed, and some Pokemon money. Seeing all these things made me feel this sense of sadness, or nostalgia. I wasn't sure why really, all these things were very happy times for me; i guess i just wanted it all back to just relive those moments again. To just have those times again when everyone was happy, when life was good so to say. I've been sitting and contemplating whether or not to get rid of my treasures, because I'm not sure if i want to hold onto the past; whether its the thing holding me back from my future. I still havent come to a very good conclusion, for the time being i'm gonna hold onto my treasures until i can make some new memories.
-GuruMan
-noun
a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.
Its funny really; as most of you probably already know I'm finally moving out of David's house and into a new place with Jessy and his brother Daniel. It's what people call a life changing experience; but it really doesn't feel like it to me. I'm not sure why, it just feels like something that I had to do, nothing really magical. I guess that will change when I actually move into the new place. That being said; I was packing all my stuff so it'd be easy to unload to the new place. Well I have this plastic storage container thing that I've had since I got kicked out of my moms house. Its more or less just a giant plastic tub that i threw a bunch of stuff that didnt really have a place into. So, I start cleaning it out so I can load shirts into it and other random clothing and i start noticing a lot of stuff. Stuff that i haven't seen for years, one thing that really got me was these two cards stuck at the bottom of the bin, both birthday cards. so what? Well, these two cards more or less summed up some of the best times in my life for me one of them i opened had a Psycho Le Cemu Ticket and a picture of the Japanese Club Fan dancers in it, when i graduated highschool and turned 18. The other Had an invitation to a photography exhibit, and a simple black paper crane, and a blue one. The photo exhibit is somewhat special... for its own reasons. The black crane was made for me by Alli when we were going out, the blue one is when she showed me how to make one; sorry Girly i forgot how ^^; As i dig a bit more in the bin i find a bunch of pictures from Anime OD and the First Expo, my first two cons. One that took me way back was this shoebox of baseball cards i've had since i dont know when. My uncle anthony gave them to me when i was really young, and over the years they just sat there. I looked through them a bit and found a lot of really memorable things like Hotwheels, and lego parts. If you knew me any time when i was younger, then you know these are a major i repeat major part of my child hood. I also found in that box of cards Gundam TCG cards, which a lot of people didnt know existed, and some Pokemon money. Seeing all these things made me feel this sense of sadness, or nostalgia. I wasn't sure why really, all these things were very happy times for me; i guess i just wanted it all back to just relive those moments again. To just have those times again when everyone was happy, when life was good so to say. I've been sitting and contemplating whether or not to get rid of my treasures, because I'm not sure if i want to hold onto the past; whether its the thing holding me back from my future. I still havent come to a very good conclusion, for the time being i'm gonna hold onto my treasures until i can make some new memories.
-GuruMan