(no subject)
ok well heres my little emo entry. i really dont like who i am. i dont like the persona ive developed over the past couple weeks. i dont want to call myself fake. but it really is bordering that line. point being im not the guy i want to be. im dont feel as if im as good of a guy as i was only a month ago. i feel like ive behaved and spoke in ways that i sometimes stand back and go "wow did you just say that. someone should make fun of you right now. that was retarded. grow up" i hate thinking of myself as immature. but i have exhibited some immature characteristics recently and im not at all a fan of them. to me im just not as genuine a guy as i was not so long ago. i was a better man and i really think its time i start making a concious effort to revisit that. so to all of those who have dealt with me recently, im sorry. try to remember me at my best and know that im really trying to return to that. so yeah thats it i guess. im done.