Ode to Friendees
I absolutely have to say if I believed in blessings, I've been blessed with some fantastic people in my life - whether they've remained in my life since I was four or whether they've been there only for the briefest of moments.
But especially two people who, lately, have had such an amazing positive influence on me even despite my going through some very tiring events. I wouldn't say life has been 'difficult' recently but it's cetainly been one of those steep learning curves. Poppledot (teehee.. drunken nicknames are the best) has rekindled my faith in the emotional generosity of people. He has an amazing depth of soul and I may not know him very well yet but I can see the love he engenders in those around him. And there is a generosity in 'spirit' and emotion and life in him that seems to have reopened my eyes to how many other wonderful generous random people exist out there. My eyes are no longer so jaded.
I may not see things in rose tinted lenses as much as I used to - and sometimes I mourn this because I feel that it's unwarranted harshness.. other times I think I suspect I still see far more good in people than they may warrant out of wishful thinking and a severe case of hoping.
But then came Mz KitKat.. with open eyes and open heart, she's reminded me what it's like to be a little more open to sharing connectivity with people. And I am remembering what it's like to tell my friends how much I love them. It's a wonderful thing to give a shit about people. It's a stupendously grooooovy thing to realise there's plenty of people out there worth giving a shit about. In the last month, I've come to realise a need to overcome the instinctive "slam the gate shut" on anyone tapping and it's happening slowly.. and sporadically. Mz KitKat, I can't thank you enough for being the most wonderful bubble and I can't believe what a positive influence you've been on me. I like to think of myself as self-grown but I really have to admit.. I've been very greatly influenced by you and it's opened me up to being influenced by others in all the right ways. Being scared of being influenced in the wrong ways was one of the reasons the walls were put up.. and now I'm doing a little growing up.
There's a billion other people who I don't see enough, who I don't tell how much I think of them enough, who I wish I had expressed what they'd meant when I had the opportunity.. and it makes me enthusiastic to see if I'll learn how to make better use of my limited spare time in doing just those things that I inherently believe is VERY important. If I can't care about people, then being so very busy in life and accomplishing "stuff" means nothing. Quality of life = People ROX!
But especially two people who, lately, have had such an amazing positive influence on me even despite my going through some very tiring events. I wouldn't say life has been 'difficult' recently but it's cetainly been one of those steep learning curves. Poppledot (teehee.. drunken nicknames are the best) has rekindled my faith in the emotional generosity of people. He has an amazing depth of soul and I may not know him very well yet but I can see the love he engenders in those around him. And there is a generosity in 'spirit' and emotion and life in him that seems to have reopened my eyes to how many other wonderful generous random people exist out there. My eyes are no longer so jaded.
I may not see things in rose tinted lenses as much as I used to - and sometimes I mourn this because I feel that it's unwarranted harshness.. other times I think I suspect I still see far more good in people than they may warrant out of wishful thinking and a severe case of hoping.
But then came Mz KitKat.. with open eyes and open heart, she's reminded me what it's like to be a little more open to sharing connectivity with people. And I am remembering what it's like to tell my friends how much I love them. It's a wonderful thing to give a shit about people. It's a stupendously grooooovy thing to realise there's plenty of people out there worth giving a shit about. In the last month, I've come to realise a need to overcome the instinctive "slam the gate shut" on anyone tapping and it's happening slowly.. and sporadically. Mz KitKat, I can't thank you enough for being the most wonderful bubble and I can't believe what a positive influence you've been on me. I like to think of myself as self-grown but I really have to admit.. I've been very greatly influenced by you and it's opened me up to being influenced by others in all the right ways. Being scared of being influenced in the wrong ways was one of the reasons the walls were put up.. and now I'm doing a little growing up.
There's a billion other people who I don't see enough, who I don't tell how much I think of them enough, who I wish I had expressed what they'd meant when I had the opportunity.. and it makes me enthusiastic to see if I'll learn how to make better use of my limited spare time in doing just those things that I inherently believe is VERY important. If I can't care about people, then being so very busy in life and accomplishing "stuff" means nothing. Quality of life = People ROX!