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I am beyond lonely. I just feel completely alone all the time. I'm excited about going to Italy next summer. I'm worried about my grades. I'm worried about grad school. I'm alone and sad and scared. I'm sick (which is wonderful). I'm hurt. I still can't believe even like five months later, I am still crying, still unable to be close to people, still not getting laid :P, still defeated. I thought maybe you know, I would be resilient or something, and able to move on with my life. I'm just stuck. And I'm completely alone.