Come on now honey, bring it on bring it on yea.. just remember me when WE USED TO BE FRIENDS.
I'm so confused about stuff. I wish people could respect the decisions i make and not worry about what i think. When it comes to the way i feel, its about me and where my heart and feelings lead me. That's no one elses space to worry about or get involved with. My feelings and thoughts shouldn't be anyone elses concern. I can deal with this on my own, i don't NEED anyone against me or for me. I appriciate the people who do respect my choices and are there for me all the way. You guys no who you are. I've always said i wanted to stop getting hurt and fall in love but i just realized that i'm not ready to do that right now, too many people come and go in my life and i'm not ready to risk getting hurt.. bc what if they do that to me? Too many people also get involved. Like asking questions and stuff. I can't stand it. I can't stand everyone asking questions that i don't even have the answers to. Everyone being like what are you gunna do about this or that.. when i dont even know. I just know i have to stay out of everything for a while and let myself make my own decisions lately, bc it seems like i'm letting everyone else do it. I've let everyone make my decisions and it seems like í've almost convinced myself that some of the stuff is what i want, even though sometimes i really don't. I don't know what I want. Theres no reason for people to get mad at me for it though. Idk I just wish i could figure everything out on my own without others interfering. And i'm not talking about certain people, i'm talking about everyone. It's me. It's my life. It's my heart. It's my feelings. It's what i want. It's MY CHOICE.
Then theres this new trust issue of mine. I now don't trust as much because they can't keep to themselves things i tell them in confidence that they won't tell anyone. I'm not mad, just thought that they wouldnt do that to me.
Lightner note...
Jake says 21st of february we should have a sleepover and drink. Sounds like a plan?
And feb. 22cnd. -Armor For Sleep, Say Anything, and Recover. Except it's in albany. I really wanna go with melly tho.
Melissa . Krissy . Joelle . Korey . I LOVE YOU GIRLS!!
-thanks for always being behind me and being there for me for everything.
Ummm...
Walked home with Korey and Joelle. -fun- And they want a Corey and Tapanga relationship. I want a........... Seth Cohen and Summer but take away summer and just give me seth. <333333 hahaha.
The Notebook comes out february 8th.
was i out of my head? was i out of my mind? how could i have ever been so blind. I was waiting for an indication, it was hard to find. Don't matter what i said, only what i do.. never meant to do bad things to you. So quiet but i finally woke up, if your sad then its time you spoke up too. -Fastball.
I Can't Look, Its KILLING Me.
<3 mlh*