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I feel great. Indecribable. I hate him, I HATE NATHAN. I thought I was gonna be in love with him forever, feel bad forever. Now I hate him. This morning, I went to the social worker, and told her everything. I needed to vent. She said to me that some of that was verbal abuse, like when he kept trying to pressure me to give him a blow job at youth group. And I just kinda felt bad before for not, but after she said that, its like, why did I feel guilty? And I vented about him to her and she made me feel great. Then I got home, got on xanga. Me and his ex, Melanie, are friends, so I checked her xanga. At this point, I didn't hate nathan yet. And then I did. He wrote this comment, calling her a whore for doing the things he pressured her into doing, and then when i talked to her, I found out some stuff he said about me. Like "She gave me a blow job and would have gone farther, but I said no." And I'm like WTF? I hated the pyhsical part of it, and I was even fucking shaking. But he kept just having me do stuff, stuff I never wanted to do. I'm so happy I decided to vent. It was so great. And now I hate him. I can't describe how I feel, I wanna touch the fucking sky right now. Anyway, love ya all. Er, just Mok, I guess. Mok, aren't you proud of me? ^_^