wanting to much?

[miaco02]

 is there such a thing as wanting to much? i mean you can always want certain things but what i am talking about is wanting so much that it is bad for you? that it actually does more harm than good? idk if that makes sense, does it?  its like you want certain things in your life and you reach for them but the never seem to appear either you can't make them or things get in your way.  i feel that i want things that will never seem to happen for me at least not anytime soon.  someone told me i desire these things bc i am getting to a certain age and it is what is expect or me and has been instilled in me by society that it is what i should want. regardless if it is pre-programmed in me or not...its still what i want.  i am getting antsy. like i should have it. i deserve it. it should be easy for me. i should just do it!  all in all it comes down to desire.  when desire over rides passiveness thats when things will happen, and thats when things will change. i'm reaching that level now.  i keep getting this feeling like life doesn't last forever you know. you need to make changes live in the moment (not be reckless) but live for the now. it kind of gives me an eerie feeling. like is something else going to happen. do what you can to make yourself happy now.  no one ever died from want too much right?

sorry if none of this makes sense.