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im so fucking upset. i feel ive been betrayed. i feel like everything that means something to me is falling apart. being a band just to make money...what the hell, this isnt what it used to be. it used to be about making music just for fun, for the fans. i dont know if i should be mad or sad. i have been both in the past 19 hours. i cried, i threw shit, i cried while throwing shit, im so upset and having the stomach flu isnt helping anything. i just want to give matt a big hug. i cant even imagine what hes going through. LONG LIVE MATT!!!!!!! i havnt even thought about warped tour today and usually that is whats on my mind. ive been distracted by so many other things. matt, beauty school, the way my stomach is making me want to puke and shit at the same time. i was so uncomfotable today. i REALLY hope i feel better for this weekend i really dont want to be an a port-a-potie the whole day sunday. i guess i have a date with a bottle of peptobismul. well im to upset to talk anymore.
xoxosandixoxo
xoxosandixoxo