imaginary friends
Today I realized that although I'm surrounded by plenty of loving friends I rely on imaginary ones instead. Today for example I was walking down Pippin I came upon Kittery and the idea of going down Kittery and turning onto Durham to stop by and say 'Hi' to Liz popped into my head. I didn't turn onto Kittery though instead I continued going down Pippin. Again I was near my friend Dustin's house and the thought came back into my head to stop on by and say 'Hi.' And again I continued going straight. Rather than stopping by either of their houses to have some company I chose loneliness instead. On my way back towards home I began talking as if there was someone standing right next to me. I even walked more towards the street leaving enough room for someone to walk right next to me on the sidewalk. I think I'm losing it. No you know what it's wierd, but I won't let it bother me. I'm strong, I can handle anything. I don't need the help of others, I can just depend on myself. Besides who even cares how I feel, I mean sure many people will miss me if I die, but how I feel, now, no. I've been relying on myself for many years so what's a few more?