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I'm sitting outside the Student Union, surrounded by friends, and listening to some heartwrenching music. The weather keeps messing with me. It's sunny and I love it; then it's breezy and I shiver. I feel I made a fool out of myself this weekend. There's nothing to do about it now. It happens to everyone. So they say. I'm an avoider. I avoid. I either avoid or take it straight on. But I'm too straightforward, they say, so now I avoid. Duck and cover! It's not doing any good, though, because now I feel empty. And foolish. Never a good combination.
I really want to see some live music. I wanna dance around like I'm alone in my room and no one is watching (other than my cat, of course) and dance my little heart out. But then people would give me weird looks.
I'm lonely. I want someone to talk to and play with and laugh with and have them not get scared or nervous and run away. Why make it such a difficult and twisted thing? Just be there for each other and keep each other company. Support each other and delight one another. Why make it into such a mess? I want someone like that. Someone that's nice and good for me. I won't call you my boyfriend. I just want you to make me smile every now and then and have inside jokes with you. I'm a hopeless romantic. Maybe I'm just hopeless.
I haven't had much of an appetite lately. I did stuff my face today, but only because it's Mario's birthday and it's the principle of the thing! I refuse to go home today. There will be something there that I don't want to have to face. Not now, anyway. I'll leave that for another day. Maybe a rainy day. I really like thunderstorms. I'd like them more if I had someone to like them with.
I really love Hope. I appreciate her more than any other girlfriend in my life right now, and that's because I don't ever see her. It's absolutely wonderful to know that you have someone to talk to about any and everything.
I feel so sneaky right now. I'm sitting here alone outside and I'm wearing my big sunglasses so no one can see where my eyes are looking at. It's like I'm hiding in an open view. I watch people. I'm an observer. I'm not a voyeur; I swear. But I like watching people and wondering about their stories, you know? Mario dyed his hair black. Mario gets the people watching.
I want someone to take me out for ice cream and a movie. Scratch that. I want to go to the park. I'm so corny. Shoot me in the foot.
I like doing nice things for people; I really do. But there's no one person in my life that I can do them for so right now I'm settling for doing them for random people. But I hesitate doing nice things for a lot of people because, more than likely, they will take it the wrong way or feel uncomfortable. I don't get that. I wish people did nice little random things for me.
I don't think anyone ever really reads my entries and I like that. That way no one ever really gets inside my head. I have a problem communicating myself to other people. I have issues opening up. If I do open up, I make bad things seem like no-big-deal things even though I know that it really really does bother me. It's the worse feeling in the world exposing yourself to someone that ends up not sticking around. Good intentions don't count then.
It's wonderful. That way you can get to know someone without ever really getting to know anybody. Or something like that. :)
I really want to see some live music. I wanna dance around like I'm alone in my room and no one is watching (other than my cat, of course) and dance my little heart out. But then people would give me weird looks.
I'm lonely. I want someone to talk to and play with and laugh with and have them not get scared or nervous and run away. Why make it such a difficult and twisted thing? Just be there for each other and keep each other company. Support each other and delight one another. Why make it into such a mess? I want someone like that. Someone that's nice and good for me. I won't call you my boyfriend. I just want you to make me smile every now and then and have inside jokes with you. I'm a hopeless romantic. Maybe I'm just hopeless.
I haven't had much of an appetite lately. I did stuff my face today, but only because it's Mario's birthday and it's the principle of the thing! I refuse to go home today. There will be something there that I don't want to have to face. Not now, anyway. I'll leave that for another day. Maybe a rainy day. I really like thunderstorms. I'd like them more if I had someone to like them with.
I really love Hope. I appreciate her more than any other girlfriend in my life right now, and that's because I don't ever see her. It's absolutely wonderful to know that you have someone to talk to about any and everything.
I feel so sneaky right now. I'm sitting here alone outside and I'm wearing my big sunglasses so no one can see where my eyes are looking at. It's like I'm hiding in an open view. I watch people. I'm an observer. I'm not a voyeur; I swear. But I like watching people and wondering about their stories, you know? Mario dyed his hair black. Mario gets the people watching.
I want someone to take me out for ice cream and a movie. Scratch that. I want to go to the park. I'm so corny. Shoot me in the foot.
I like doing nice things for people; I really do. But there's no one person in my life that I can do them for so right now I'm settling for doing them for random people. But I hesitate doing nice things for a lot of people because, more than likely, they will take it the wrong way or feel uncomfortable. I don't get that. I wish people did nice little random things for me.
I don't think anyone ever really reads my entries and I like that. That way no one ever really gets inside my head. I have a problem communicating myself to other people. I have issues opening up. If I do open up, I make bad things seem like no-big-deal things even though I know that it really really does bother me. It's the worse feeling in the world exposing yourself to someone that ends up not sticking around. Good intentions don't count then.
It's wonderful. That way you can get to know someone without ever really getting to know anybody. Or something like that. :)