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OK so im in jasper clinic...10ish tubes of blood taken from me already...I feel like a pin cushin...Only two times did I almost freak out. Once being when the guy shoved the needle in me...it went straight through the vein and I thought i was gonna throw up my pancreas..the other the vaccum sealed tube was fucked up and wasnt working...and the chick kept moving the needle around....and I could feel something building up inside of me..oh yea..that was a swear word about to come out my mouth...But i didnt..I said..take it out...and we proceeded to the other arm...The no shower thing is a bit much for me..but im lucky cuz there are a couple cuties here...and one guy which is 32..I find reaaallllllyy attractive..im talkin nice body..dark hair and dark eyes....Im guessing italian...I get out in the morning...and the 1st thing im going to do is go take a shower..cuz im nasty...and i mean really nasty..i want a different hoodie cuz ive been wearing the same one for days now. and im sick of it...as much as i love it...I just remembered its the 13th and Starbucks should be open now...the one on west main..ya know the one with the drive thtough..and I would definately stop by but I have no money since i spent all I had this weekend at the Grape and Wine festival...Which i must say was fun hanging out with greg,carolyn and Erin...I needed some time to talk to Erin...It was due...way past due...I think things are better...I dont know...I hope so...As far as the guy from Holland..I dont know whats going on there...honestly I dont...I wish I knew..cuz I like him...IM not gonna say alot..but I like him enough to want to be with him...cuz hes a great guy..just needs to work on communication because those of us who use communication on a daily basis..find poeple like him..a bit.........stressful...Which leads me to Ryan which I have not said anythign about to pretty much anyone...Ryan is 28 i know a bit old for me.BUT...ryan gets me...Its weird..I feel a connection with him...He has been the only one to send me an email since ive been in the jasper clinic..Just some of the things he says makes me smile and not many do that...His little comments..are cute..quirky and just all around fun...Like he said somethingt about how if he saw me at the grape and wine festival i would catch his eye...and then he says hell both eyes...haha...so i just had to respond to that with...If I caught your eye..would you want it back...I dont know the response to that yet..since he hasnt sent me a reply yet...The bad part about all of it with Ryan is being that...he is moving...and it would figure that once i meet someone cool...they would have to move...Because you know thats how life is...something good happens..its taken away before you even get to enjoy it...anyways..hes moving to Ann Arbor..and I plan on seeing when when I go in october to get crunk with the girls..and possibly greg..Make a lil side time to go see me some Ryan...which I used to not be a fan of the name Ryan..but hes cute..and it makes me like the name so much more...We shall see...He did say..that he feels he met me for a reason...What reason he doesnt know..but he does beleive for a reason...Maybe I can grow from him..he is a very smart guy..very wise..And all I want in a guy is someone I can grow from...experience life with...not just someone who wants to fuck every hour on the hour...not that, that would be bad..but you know what Im saying..If thats all the relationship is going to be revolved around...I dont wanna be part of it...anyways...Im gonna go nap or something cuz there is seriously nothing else to do in this place...Ill be home tomarrow..soo anyone who has questions about my stay here in the lovely paying Jasper clinic...let me know....PEACE YALL!!!!