[DaiNoo] Dropping Masks - Oneshot
Title: Dropping Masks
Genre: darkfic, angst
Rating: PG-13
Author: Mi
Pairing: Dainoo
A/N sorry for this silly fic game of Yaya and me but I just had to answer again. Still, it’s not really a prequel. Please don't hate me, Yaya. I hope you understand..
[I'm weak]After I slammed the door shut I collapsed on my bed. Tears were streaming down my cheeks and I was sure my eyes were all red already. Somehow the emotions I suppressed wanted to come out all at once. Anger, disappointment, sadness. But why was the only thought I had that I shouldn’t have run away from Kei? The feeling that I just worsened our situation crept slowly into me and mixed with the feeling of guilt.
All I could do was to sob helplessly on my bed.
He probably thinks I’m strong, but I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to wear the mask I built all the years anymore. I’m weak. While everybody pretends to love me, they actually don’t. They just don’t want to be rude. And I pretend to be happy to protect myself from their gazes when they think I can’t see them. I laugh to hold in my tears.
But the most important reason is to make Kei happy. He’s the only one I really cherish in my life. Although we’re totally opposite, we get along so well.
As long as Kei is happy, I’m happy too. That’s what I always thought. But I didn’t know that I would end up broken like this. I thought I could deal with the pain.
I sat up and wiped away my tears when suddenly my phone rang. I looked at the screen and a picture of Kei smiled at me. I picked it up with my shaky hand and pressed the green button without thinking too much. I knew if I did I would end up either not answering the call at all or immediately yelling at Kei. So I just didn’t say anything and listened.
“Dai-chan…” Kei’s voice trembled.
Before he could say anything else I cut the connection and stormed out of my room, out of my house, leaving my parents dumbfounded, but the only thing I could think of was to run faster.
Outside, the air was so cold, that it even hurt while breathing and the night was pitch black, so I barely saw where I was going. Suddenly I tripped over something lying in my way and I fell. But before I hit the cold ground below me, strong arms caught me.
“Dai-chan!”
I immediately felt warm with the beautiful voice and the familiar scent overwhelming me. The other helped me to stand up and then he cupped my face, scanning me with a concerned look. “Are you ok?”
Instead of answering I just pressed my cold lips against Kei’s. It surprised him so much that he pulled away and looked at me like I was a ghost, but he didn’t take away his hands from my face. His touch kept me warm, and I felt my face burning as I said “I love you”.
And then there was the cold air caressing my skin again.
I watched as he ran away from me after seeing me without my mask.
But now he doesn’t have to be afraid of me finding out about his true self anymore.
He leaving me is better than me leaving him. Less pain for him. Less feeling of guilt for me.
I didn’t know if he would come back like I always do.
Genre: darkfic, angst
Rating: PG-13
Author: Mi
Pairing: Dainoo
A/N sorry for this silly fic game of Yaya and me but I just had to answer again. Still, it’s not really a prequel. Please don't hate me, Yaya. I hope you understand..
[I'm weak]After I slammed the door shut I collapsed on my bed. Tears were streaming down my cheeks and I was sure my eyes were all red already. Somehow the emotions I suppressed wanted to come out all at once. Anger, disappointment, sadness. But why was the only thought I had that I shouldn’t have run away from Kei? The feeling that I just worsened our situation crept slowly into me and mixed with the feeling of guilt.
All I could do was to sob helplessly on my bed.
He probably thinks I’m strong, but I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to wear the mask I built all the years anymore. I’m weak. While everybody pretends to love me, they actually don’t. They just don’t want to be rude. And I pretend to be happy to protect myself from their gazes when they think I can’t see them. I laugh to hold in my tears.
But the most important reason is to make Kei happy. He’s the only one I really cherish in my life. Although we’re totally opposite, we get along so well.
As long as Kei is happy, I’m happy too. That’s what I always thought. But I didn’t know that I would end up broken like this. I thought I could deal with the pain.
I sat up and wiped away my tears when suddenly my phone rang. I looked at the screen and a picture of Kei smiled at me. I picked it up with my shaky hand and pressed the green button without thinking too much. I knew if I did I would end up either not answering the call at all or immediately yelling at Kei. So I just didn’t say anything and listened.
“Dai-chan…” Kei’s voice trembled.
Before he could say anything else I cut the connection and stormed out of my room, out of my house, leaving my parents dumbfounded, but the only thing I could think of was to run faster.
Outside, the air was so cold, that it even hurt while breathing and the night was pitch black, so I barely saw where I was going. Suddenly I tripped over something lying in my way and I fell. But before I hit the cold ground below me, strong arms caught me.
“Dai-chan!”
I immediately felt warm with the beautiful voice and the familiar scent overwhelming me. The other helped me to stand up and then he cupped my face, scanning me with a concerned look. “Are you ok?”
Instead of answering I just pressed my cold lips against Kei’s. It surprised him so much that he pulled away and looked at me like I was a ghost, but he didn’t take away his hands from my face. His touch kept me warm, and I felt my face burning as I said “I love you”.
And then there was the cold air caressing my skin again.
I watched as he ran away from me after seeing me without my mask.
But now he doesn’t have to be afraid of me finding out about his true self anymore.
He leaving me is better than me leaving him. Less pain for him. Less feeling of guilt for me.
I didn’t know if he would come back like I always do.