[Arioka-centric] My life - Oneshot
Title: My life
Author: Yaya
Rating: pg
Genre: angsty,
Pairing: Daiki-centric, Ariyama (friendship), Dainoo
A/N: Finally it's my answer to Mi's 'My golden cage'. With this story there is a great opportunity to lose my best friend. I'm absolutly honest in this story. It took me so long to write this story, although it's too short again, because I considered to lie and just leave everything as it is. But I can't stand it anymore, so I decided to be honest. It makes me sick, depressed and want to disappear from my shitty life. So please comment and tell me, if you would be my friend and had to read this, will you kill me? Or would you understand me and hug me to make me feel better? Please tell me.
Daiki's phone vibrated. Slowly he averted his eyes down from starring at the ceiling, to see if it was something that could distract him from his boredom. It was Yamada in JUMP group: 'how was your karaoke yesterday?' Shit. He knew Yamada was angry just by reading that sentence. He must have seen the photos Yuto posted yesterday with his account. Daiki closed his phone without answering. He didn't know what he should answer. 'Fun'? Honest but it would make Ryosuke kill him. 'Boring without you'? Nice, but a complete lie. It wasn't that Daiki didn't want to spend time with his best friend, but recently, each time it wasn't only the two of them, they had a problem. Everything started with Daiki telling Ryo that he had a boyfriend, Kei. Since then, Ryosuke started to be cold towards Daiki whenever Kei was with them. This remembered Daiki of a fight they had few years ago, when Daiki told Ryosuke that he had a crush on his sister. At first, Ryosuke didn't talk to Daiki for a whole week. Then, as soon as they started talking again, Ryo told Daiki again and again all the bad sides of his sister, and told him that she wasn't worth it. Whenever Daiki would ask why Ryosuke told him all of that, he would only answer: "Because she isn't good for you." Since that time, Daiki never mentioned a crush again to his best friend. Now the same thing started all over again. Whenever JUMP would have a party with few friends like Ryuu, Shintaro or Yuma, Ryosuke would say he won't come. Not wanting to make him left out, Daiki had a hard time persuading Ryosuke to go, but he succeed. He thought it would be fun, even for Ryosuke, who wasn't someone who love parties. But, Daiki didn't expect Ryosuke reaction: As soon as Kei appeared, Daiki would make a sour face and completely shut his mouth. He would go into a corner, watching everyone having fun, after he told Daiki to just enjoy the party and don't care about him, with a sour face and a death glare glued in his eyes. Whenever Daiki or Kei tried to approach him, persuade him to have some fun too, literally dragging him with them, he would just glare at the and tell them they should go and have fun. Sometimes they would be able to make him laugh, but it never lasted long. Soon the sour expression was seen on Ryo's face again. It was the same when they had a gathering: While everyone was chatting and laughing happily, Ryosuke would just sit there and look out of the window or into his iPhone. Then he would say he had to go, and Daiki, feeling guilty for not making Ryosuke have fun, would accompany him outside, trying to talk to him, hug him or just take his arm. Ryosuke wouldn't open his mouth once, he avoided any touch from Daiki and would only speak to say 'let go of me', not knowing how much he really hurt Daiki. Daiki too knew that Ryosuke was hurt by feeling jealous. It wasn't his fault though. At first Daiki thought everything would be okay after a while, but instead of getting better, everything got worse and worse until now. Daiki knew he had hurt Ryo by not telling him to come too. Actually, the karaoke last night was a gathering of parents, and Daiki and Kei took the opportunity to spend more time with each other. It wasn't Daiki's fault that Ryosuke's parents weren't there, nor that Ryosuke was ill when the other members decided to tag along too. It was only his fault for forgetting to tell Ryo. But to be fair and honest, Daiki didn't miss the gloomy face of Ryo nor his task to make Ryosuke have fun. It wasn't that he didn't want to spend time with Ryo, it was just that he often was busy. And it slowly want to kill himself always seeing Ryosuke's sad face. Why couldn't Ryosuke just trust him that he wouldn't leave him for anyone else? Why did he doubt Daiki's love for him? Why couldn't he just accept his other friends, always being sure that no one could reach the deepest place in Daiki's heart? Because this place only belonged to his best friend, and no one could ever replace him there. Love-relationship could break, but best friends should stay for eternity. Thus, why couldn't Ryosuke just believe that Daiki loved him so much?
Author: Yaya
Rating: pg
Genre: angsty,
Pairing: Daiki-centric, Ariyama (friendship), Dainoo
A/N: Finally it's my answer to Mi's 'My golden cage'. With this story there is a great opportunity to lose my best friend. I'm absolutly honest in this story. It took me so long to write this story, although it's too short again, because I considered to lie and just leave everything as it is. But I can't stand it anymore, so I decided to be honest. It makes me sick, depressed and want to disappear from my shitty life. So please comment and tell me, if you would be my friend and had to read this, will you kill me? Or would you understand me and hug me to make me feel better? Please tell me.
Daiki's phone vibrated. Slowly he averted his eyes down from starring at the ceiling, to see if it was something that could distract him from his boredom. It was Yamada in JUMP group: 'how was your karaoke yesterday?' Shit. He knew Yamada was angry just by reading that sentence. He must have seen the photos Yuto posted yesterday with his account. Daiki closed his phone without answering. He didn't know what he should answer. 'Fun'? Honest but it would make Ryosuke kill him. 'Boring without you'? Nice, but a complete lie. It wasn't that Daiki didn't want to spend time with his best friend, but recently, each time it wasn't only the two of them, they had a problem. Everything started with Daiki telling Ryo that he had a boyfriend, Kei. Since then, Ryosuke started to be cold towards Daiki whenever Kei was with them. This remembered Daiki of a fight they had few years ago, when Daiki told Ryosuke that he had a crush on his sister. At first, Ryosuke didn't talk to Daiki for a whole week. Then, as soon as they started talking again, Ryo told Daiki again and again all the bad sides of his sister, and told him that she wasn't worth it. Whenever Daiki would ask why Ryosuke told him all of that, he would only answer: "Because she isn't good for you." Since that time, Daiki never mentioned a crush again to his best friend. Now the same thing started all over again. Whenever JUMP would have a party with few friends like Ryuu, Shintaro or Yuma, Ryosuke would say he won't come. Not wanting to make him left out, Daiki had a hard time persuading Ryosuke to go, but he succeed. He thought it would be fun, even for Ryosuke, who wasn't someone who love parties. But, Daiki didn't expect Ryosuke reaction: As soon as Kei appeared, Daiki would make a sour face and completely shut his mouth. He would go into a corner, watching everyone having fun, after he told Daiki to just enjoy the party and don't care about him, with a sour face and a death glare glued in his eyes. Whenever Daiki or Kei tried to approach him, persuade him to have some fun too, literally dragging him with them, he would just glare at the and tell them they should go and have fun. Sometimes they would be able to make him laugh, but it never lasted long. Soon the sour expression was seen on Ryo's face again. It was the same when they had a gathering: While everyone was chatting and laughing happily, Ryosuke would just sit there and look out of the window or into his iPhone. Then he would say he had to go, and Daiki, feeling guilty for not making Ryosuke have fun, would accompany him outside, trying to talk to him, hug him or just take his arm. Ryosuke wouldn't open his mouth once, he avoided any touch from Daiki and would only speak to say 'let go of me', not knowing how much he really hurt Daiki. Daiki too knew that Ryosuke was hurt by feeling jealous. It wasn't his fault though. At first Daiki thought everything would be okay after a while, but instead of getting better, everything got worse and worse until now. Daiki knew he had hurt Ryo by not telling him to come too. Actually, the karaoke last night was a gathering of parents, and Daiki and Kei took the opportunity to spend more time with each other. It wasn't Daiki's fault that Ryosuke's parents weren't there, nor that Ryosuke was ill when the other members decided to tag along too. It was only his fault for forgetting to tell Ryo. But to be fair and honest, Daiki didn't miss the gloomy face of Ryo nor his task to make Ryosuke have fun. It wasn't that he didn't want to spend time with Ryo, it was just that he often was busy. And it slowly want to kill himself always seeing Ryosuke's sad face. Why couldn't Ryosuke just trust him that he wouldn't leave him for anyone else? Why did he doubt Daiki's love for him? Why couldn't he just accept his other friends, always being sure that no one could reach the deepest place in Daiki's heart? Because this place only belonged to his best friend, and no one could ever replace him there. Love-relationship could break, but best friends should stay for eternity. Thus, why couldn't Ryosuke just believe that Daiki loved him so much?