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I have spent a lot of time being unsatisfied. In both Texas and Arizona, I fabricate these wonderous situations and wait for them to come into existance. Then I mope and wonder what happened when they don't. It's stupid - in the words of a member of my 3rd family, it's a bunch of "poopy".
Nowadays I think I've become better at actually realizing the situations in my head. More able to guide my life into a shape that I see fit.
There's a deeper issue at play, though.
The whole problem is being dissatisfied, for whatever reason, with the present. It's a bunch of crap because things are pretty damn good in my life. I enjoy being a dreamer, but always looking for more and being unsatisfied with what I have is not really going to get me anywhere.
More and more, I'm envisioning my life realistically.
More and more, I'm able to appreciate the present.
More and more, I'm happy.
The goal and *CLICHE WARNING* "new year's resolution" *END CLICHE* for 2006 is...
Live in each moment and enjoy it.
... now let's all order some strippers for Matt and give him a back massage. man, my fantasies rock.
Nowadays I think I've become better at actually realizing the situations in my head. More able to guide my life into a shape that I see fit.
There's a deeper issue at play, though.
The whole problem is being dissatisfied, for whatever reason, with the present. It's a bunch of crap because things are pretty damn good in my life. I enjoy being a dreamer, but always looking for more and being unsatisfied with what I have is not really going to get me anywhere.
More and more, I'm envisioning my life realistically.
More and more, I'm able to appreciate the present.
More and more, I'm happy.
The goal and *CLICHE WARNING* "new year's resolution" *END CLICHE* for 2006 is...
Live in each moment and enjoy it.
... now let's all order some strippers for Matt and give him a back massage. man, my fantasies rock.