So keep me awake for every moment...
I'm surprised by how quickly my memories of him are fading. I'm quite content to let them slip away. It'll save me from the pain later. I think I'm discovering that the separation will be easier for me than I'd anticipated. I don't know what the future will bring but I'm not dreading it anymore. Que cera, cera I suppose...
If this is what difference two weeks makes, a month should make an even bigger difference so that by the time I have to go home, I'll be closer to being myself again. Although who that person is, I'm no longer sure. I know I'm a different person. I feel like the girl who first came to London is almost completely gone. I feel so different. I barely recognize myself anymore.
I think that's why I started to like him so much. He changed me. I think that's part of what makes you feel attached to people... when knowing them changes you and you'll never be the same again. There's no going back.
List of people who have changed me (all good changes, not all good people):
Mrs. Thomas
My boys
My girls... WE'RE SOOO SHALLOW! (::sniff:: tear)
My MHC ladies
Every last one of my LDA tutors
My London friends
LONDON (I know it's not a person, but humor me here)
::sigh:: Peter
"A beautiful and blinding morning,
the world outside begins to breathe
See clouds arriving without warning
I need you here to shelter me
And I know that only time will tell us how
to carry on without each other...
So keep me awake to memorize you
Give me more time to feel this way
We can't stay like this forever
but i can have you next to me today
If I could make these moments endless
if I could stop the winds of change...
if we just keep our eyes wide open
then everything would stay the same
And I know that only time will tell me how
we'll carry on without each other
So keep me awake for every moment
Give us more time to be this way
We can't stay like this forever
but i can have you next to me today
We'll let tomorrow wait, you're here, right now, with me
all my fears just fall away, when you are all I see
We can't stay this way forever
but I have you here today
And I will remember
Oh I will remember
Remember all the love we shared today"