I only post in here to be miserable...
FACT.
My head is at it's lowest point ever. I have no idea how long I can carry on like this. The doctor has put my Prozac up to 40mg and I'm hoping some sort of a miracle happens soon. I'm very very close to abandoning everything and everyone and going back to mum and dads to live under the bed in the spare room. I wouldn't be any better off there either, in fact I'd be worse because I know nobody and I wouldn't even have a job to keep me going.
I am so utterly unbelievably miserable that I feel like I'm dragging a lead weight around with me all the time. The tears have come back, which although it's a relief to be getting them out of my system, it's a pain in the arse because they won't stop.
I've been single for very very nearly a year now, and I feel like nobody's gonna accept me for who I am. I hate what I see when I look in the mirror, all I ever do online is rant and even though I don't in RL.. who the fuck is ever gonna know that?
My job is better, the flat is cool even though I had a slight drama with a locksmith the other week and a slight mishap with the shower this morning, but my head is just getting worse and worse and worse.
All I want is to be happy, and to be able to relax and believe that people actually like me, and like me for what I am. It really really shouldn't be this hard.
My head is at it's lowest point ever. I have no idea how long I can carry on like this. The doctor has put my Prozac up to 40mg and I'm hoping some sort of a miracle happens soon. I'm very very close to abandoning everything and everyone and going back to mum and dads to live under the bed in the spare room. I wouldn't be any better off there either, in fact I'd be worse because I know nobody and I wouldn't even have a job to keep me going.
I am so utterly unbelievably miserable that I feel like I'm dragging a lead weight around with me all the time. The tears have come back, which although it's a relief to be getting them out of my system, it's a pain in the arse because they won't stop.
I've been single for very very nearly a year now, and I feel like nobody's gonna accept me for who I am. I hate what I see when I look in the mirror, all I ever do online is rant and even though I don't in RL.. who the fuck is ever gonna know that?
My job is better, the flat is cool even though I had a slight drama with a locksmith the other week and a slight mishap with the shower this morning, but my head is just getting worse and worse and worse.
All I want is to be happy, and to be able to relax and believe that people actually like me, and like me for what I am. It really really shouldn't be this hard.