Bored

[mhairie]

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything.
A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

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Alone in a crowd...

[anonymous]

Sometimes I feel like my friends don't seem to care about me or even notice me. They all seemed too wrapped up in themselves and I feel like I'm looking at them through a foggy pane of glass; they see me, but don't see me. Perhaps it's simply typical of their age group (late teens and early twenties), but I feel that they hear me, but don't listen. That they just don't care enough to listen. Part of me wishes I could just shut them all out, to close up so tightly inside that it wouldn't matter whether they cared or not. Part of me wonders whether any of them would cry at my funeral were I to die tomorrow. I feel so very alone, so lost, and no one seems able to empathize. My heart is so heavy and my burdens seems so great.

But then I do not know whether or not they are suffering, though I often am privy to their secrets. Perhaps I am merely blowing things out of proportion. Maybe I complain so often that I am tuned out by their hearing. In any case, I hurt so deeply that I think my heart will break. And no one seems to care. Or worse, they think I am hosting a pity party and snap at me for doing so. There seems to be no way to win.