piss poor
how come piss poor days always come when it is raining outside. heres my list of things gone bad.
1. had to wake up at 6:50
2. cleaning people coming so i had to clean my room (doesnt make sense to me either)
3. threw up on the way to class
4. skipped class (sounds good but it wont be when i go back)
5. told the girl i love stuff that should not have
6. stuck home cant go out
7. no food besides chicken nugget tv meals
i dont know what to do.
i have questions which i need to answer and have answers for none of the questions. someone come and take me away from myself. with all the bad that is going on there isnt even a thought for good. if i die now does it matter to anyone? a few yes but not many. if it were my choice i wouldnt been here. people always say theres something wrong, they are depressed and its always for shit reasons. just because one thing happens to you it does not make you depressed. i can say im depressed because look at what i have gone through in the last 3 months. pure hell. i broke up with the girl i love and i coudlnt get her back, constant fighting with my parents, fights with friends, lossing at everything i do, people making fun of me, cuts and bruises, and people say for one thing they are depressed. what are they thinking. i wish i could just have one thing to complain about, but i dont. i have like 5 people telling me oh, im depressed becuase my dad wont let me get this, i cant afford this, she said no, i lost my true love. yeah i can relate to these things. they have all happened to me. hell ive spent nights in supermarket parking lots before but when i say whats wrong with me they act like thats small for the fact that their daddy wont buy them a new BMW. of all the people who are telling me that they are depressed i can only agree with 2 pof them. im not going to mention names but my friend from florida, hes been throguh and alot, and my best friend in NYC she has been throguh enough too. but i hate the people who havent been through anything and say they are depressed, you want attention fine this whole entry is your damn attention. dont expect anything else from me becuase i only try helping people who need it, Mr. Florida and Miss. New York City need my help and i will do all i can for them.
1. had to wake up at 6:50
2. cleaning people coming so i had to clean my room (doesnt make sense to me either)
3. threw up on the way to class
4. skipped class (sounds good but it wont be when i go back)
5. told the girl i love stuff that should not have
6. stuck home cant go out
7. no food besides chicken nugget tv meals
i dont know what to do.
i have questions which i need to answer and have answers for none of the questions. someone come and take me away from myself. with all the bad that is going on there isnt even a thought for good. if i die now does it matter to anyone? a few yes but not many. if it were my choice i wouldnt been here. people always say theres something wrong, they are depressed and its always for shit reasons. just because one thing happens to you it does not make you depressed. i can say im depressed because look at what i have gone through in the last 3 months. pure hell. i broke up with the girl i love and i coudlnt get her back, constant fighting with my parents, fights with friends, lossing at everything i do, people making fun of me, cuts and bruises, and people say for one thing they are depressed. what are they thinking. i wish i could just have one thing to complain about, but i dont. i have like 5 people telling me oh, im depressed becuase my dad wont let me get this, i cant afford this, she said no, i lost my true love. yeah i can relate to these things. they have all happened to me. hell ive spent nights in supermarket parking lots before but when i say whats wrong with me they act like thats small for the fact that their daddy wont buy them a new BMW. of all the people who are telling me that they are depressed i can only agree with 2 pof them. im not going to mention names but my friend from florida, hes been throguh and alot, and my best friend in NYC she has been throguh enough too. but i hate the people who havent been through anything and say they are depressed, you want attention fine this whole entry is your damn attention. dont expect anything else from me becuase i only try helping people who need it, Mr. Florida and Miss. New York City need my help and i will do all i can for them.