A much calmer response.
I have slept, I have thought and I have read.
I find it interesting that the people responding to last nights "KICK TO T3H FACE" response are the ones who have gotten to know me in the recent times.
Im going to never speak of this accursed meme ever again after this message but I have my own "Final Thought" on the matter.
This Livejournal is not an accurate representation of my person.
The things I say in here, the way I am, its not a full representation of me. This mostly just shows me at extreme emotions, eg when I am really happy, or really down, really pissed off, or really excited.
This is because my LJ is my way of letting go of those emotions, I cant open up IRL and have trouble talking to people about my emotions. So I use LJ to blurt it all out.
If you want to read an accurate representation of my personality, I suggest you remove me as a friend, because you wont get that. You need to hang around me everyday to get a good idea of what I am like. You need to see me at work, at cons, on the internet, and at times of emotional distress.
I was upset by SOME of the comments made yesterday, not because I cant take a little criticism here and there but because I was of the mindset
"These people are suppose to be the ones who know me best...and they think im like that?"
Most of the people on this LJ are supposed to know me well, most of you have known me for years, and seen me change a lot. Maybe you liked the old whiney emo teenage Mark that was "Mr Con" and would bounce around all supa kawai desu happy neko wai at meets and cons. But was a sad and depressed kid on LJ who was doting on his "crush of the week"
But I changed, I grew up and I had my eyes opened to who I really am. The Mark that first joined the anime community was the fake, nothing more than a kid who wanted his life to be like an anime, a fanboy. I got shown who I am, got given some inner strength and confidence and from there my life began to finaly get round to being who I really am. A showman, an actor, a person with a good heart who has the power to love and cherish those he cares for. Somebody with some balls to stand up and say "Fuck off!" a guy who knows how to have some fun. A shy, sensitive guy who still likes to be a man and blow up shit and shoot guns.
So yeah, I was hurt when the comments I was getting made me feel like a;
"Arrogant, self absorbed, womanizing, uncaring braggart who cares more about looking good in a costume than his friends"
Thats not who I am, if you think that way about me, you need to spend some more time with me and see who I am.
I know who I am is who I am, I know that my false bravado can come across as arrogant, but I know my real friends know that its just a bit of gusto and that really I'm still dealing with insecurities.
Let this post be the one to say "This is WHO I AM - You dont like it, I'm not going to cry if you defriend me. It just shows me who my real friends are"
I have a big whopping life ahead of me, and I intend to goto cons and do cosplay and do skits until Im too old to make the trip. I intend on having relationships that work out and dont, I intend on complaining about my job and singing its praises.
If you want you can read all about here in my LJ, if you dont...Im sure that Penny Arcade has a joke about Penis on it.
Catch you all later, Ill post about how sexy I am or something ;)
I find it interesting that the people responding to last nights "KICK TO T3H FACE" response are the ones who have gotten to know me in the recent times.
Im going to never speak of this accursed meme ever again after this message but I have my own "Final Thought" on the matter.
This Livejournal is not an accurate representation of my person.
The things I say in here, the way I am, its not a full representation of me. This mostly just shows me at extreme emotions, eg when I am really happy, or really down, really pissed off, or really excited.
This is because my LJ is my way of letting go of those emotions, I cant open up IRL and have trouble talking to people about my emotions. So I use LJ to blurt it all out.
If you want to read an accurate representation of my personality, I suggest you remove me as a friend, because you wont get that. You need to hang around me everyday to get a good idea of what I am like. You need to see me at work, at cons, on the internet, and at times of emotional distress.
I was upset by SOME of the comments made yesterday, not because I cant take a little criticism here and there but because I was of the mindset
"These people are suppose to be the ones who know me best...and they think im like that?"
Most of the people on this LJ are supposed to know me well, most of you have known me for years, and seen me change a lot. Maybe you liked the old whiney emo teenage Mark that was "Mr Con" and would bounce around all supa kawai desu happy neko wai at meets and cons. But was a sad and depressed kid on LJ who was doting on his "crush of the week"
But I changed, I grew up and I had my eyes opened to who I really am. The Mark that first joined the anime community was the fake, nothing more than a kid who wanted his life to be like an anime, a fanboy. I got shown who I am, got given some inner strength and confidence and from there my life began to finaly get round to being who I really am. A showman, an actor, a person with a good heart who has the power to love and cherish those he cares for. Somebody with some balls to stand up and say "Fuck off!" a guy who knows how to have some fun. A shy, sensitive guy who still likes to be a man and blow up shit and shoot guns.
So yeah, I was hurt when the comments I was getting made me feel like a;
"Arrogant, self absorbed, womanizing, uncaring braggart who cares more about looking good in a costume than his friends"
Thats not who I am, if you think that way about me, you need to spend some more time with me and see who I am.
I know who I am is who I am, I know that my false bravado can come across as arrogant, but I know my real friends know that its just a bit of gusto and that really I'm still dealing with insecurities.
Let this post be the one to say "This is WHO I AM - You dont like it, I'm not going to cry if you defriend me. It just shows me who my real friends are"
I have a big whopping life ahead of me, and I intend to goto cons and do cosplay and do skits until Im too old to make the trip. I intend on having relationships that work out and dont, I intend on complaining about my job and singing its praises.
If you want you can read all about here in my LJ, if you dont...Im sure that Penny Arcade has a joke about Penis on it.
Catch you all later, Ill post about how sexy I am or something ;)