The long goodbye
If anyone's noticed I've kinda disappeared a bit in social ways, it's entirely because I've turtled dealing with Sable's tumor progression and health decline. There's nothing else we can do but keep him comfortable, but it's caused if possible even more stress because we just don't know how and when we should say goodbye. He's sleeping most of the day, but when he's awake he wants attention, comes for hugs and feedings, and is otherwise acting as normal as he can. But the tumor is getting larger and it makes his face itch, and is causing increasing sinus congestion. It's a race to see which ends up making us let him go first.
Added to this stress is the fact that he only tolerated the trip for TG, and was very less copacetic with it than the last time we took him on a long trip. Christmas is coming up, and it's much longer - we don't know if he'll be with us still, if he will how he will tolerate it, and how we can make it not suck for him. Travel days are going to be long and rather painful I fear. Leaving him home isn't a good option - whoever cares for him would have to come by three times a day, and that's assuming he lets them feed him with no fuss.
I hate this adult thing, so so much. I hate not being able to control things too - that's something I've identified as my big anxiety - lack of control. I can't make death go away, I can't keep people from getting old and sick.... argh!
Added to this stress is the fact that he only tolerated the trip for TG, and was very less copacetic with it than the last time we took him on a long trip. Christmas is coming up, and it's much longer - we don't know if he'll be with us still, if he will how he will tolerate it, and how we can make it not suck for him. Travel days are going to be long and rather painful I fear. Leaving him home isn't a good option - whoever cares for him would have to come by three times a day, and that's assuming he lets them feed him with no fuss.
I hate this adult thing, so so much. I hate not being able to control things too - that's something I've identified as my big anxiety - lack of control. I can't make death go away, I can't keep people from getting old and sick.... argh!