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So with the addition of being sick on the first week and not being able to get back into the exercising regimint that i'm used to has just sucked. I'm kind of lost in my head right now. I don't know how to feel about anything right now. I've been in rather bad moods all this week. I'm having the doctor check me out for two different things, one I have been diagnosed with anxiety. But the other is pending. I won't say what it is, but if you see me and know me, you can kind of guess what it is. So I am officially crazy lol comforting. I'm finding myself very cynical and less than optimistic nowadays. I'm not holding out any hope for anything that could bring me some kind of serenity. I do have one thing that for some reason takes the edge off so I'm going to continue going forward with that. This whole thing is kind of an update, not for pity because I don't believe in pity at all. I just losing my belief that happiness comes upon me. It's getting harder and harder to find a peace of mind. Anyway, life goes on.

This semester is going to be absolute hell for my emotional and psychological senses. But we'll see what happens lol