Life's lesson at 50
You'd think that at my age I'd have gotten it together enough to understand the complexities of friendships. Alas, I haven't and learned a very hard lesson today from someone who's basically family.
I feel empty due to the circumstance. The "event" being justified, but the process of the delivery has left a bitter taste to me and almost makes me feel like it "hardened" a part of myself.
I've gone thru life as a "giver", and I've believed in the felling that if one gives, one gets back more in the joy of the giving. I've also had the unfortunate gift of expecting people to have the same standards in that manner. Alas, that is not usually the case (as Earl and Mark keep telling me to stop expecting things from people). Today was a firm example that no matter how much good you think you have done for someone, one slip on my part and that person shattered my inner belief.
So I leave the day with a feeling of emptiness and a feeling that a part of me has left. To expect nothing from anyone but my partners, that way I won't be disappointed, hurt etc...
Life's lesson at 50.....
I feel empty due to the circumstance. The "event" being justified, but the process of the delivery has left a bitter taste to me and almost makes me feel like it "hardened" a part of myself.
I've gone thru life as a "giver", and I've believed in the felling that if one gives, one gets back more in the joy of the giving. I've also had the unfortunate gift of expecting people to have the same standards in that manner. Alas, that is not usually the case (as Earl and Mark keep telling me to stop expecting things from people). Today was a firm example that no matter how much good you think you have done for someone, one slip on my part and that person shattered my inner belief.
So I leave the day with a feeling of emptiness and a feeling that a part of me has left. To expect nothing from anyone but my partners, that way I won't be disappointed, hurt etc...
Life's lesson at 50.....