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isnt it funny no matter what you do in life or how hard you work, everything is a let down. i feel like im stuck in a cycle of events, and im not happy with myself in anyway. i spend too much time worrying about how my life is going to turn out and i freak myself out. im always assuming the worst of things, and its starting to keep me from really enjoying myself. these are suppose to be the best years of my life, but im swirling into a series of unfortunate events. i need to make myself happy. i cant even keep the people i love and care about happy anymore. i just want life to be easy again, and i want to be able to smile and really mean it