tHiNgS cHaNgE. . . . .
It is amazing how things change. For a simple mistake things completely change. A perfect example of this is the story of me and him. We were absolutly fine, until i took a risk, and wrote him the infamous letter. I can't and im not going to regret writing it. Because things always happen for a reason right? Every time i write, i write the same shit. . . of how much i miss him and of how i shouldnt have written him that stupid letter. But today is going to be something different . . .i hate feeling this emptiness inside i have to get him to listen to me.
i have two options:: 1. get him to listen to me and try to work things out with him. 2. forget him COMPLETLEY pretend he doesnt even exist and pretend that i EVER met him.
obviously it is going to be hard. i mean either one, i choose its going to be difficult. but i have to decide. My life has changed because of him him--> weird cuz me and him were never together.
People always tell me "oh forget about him blah blah". but its not easy. i dont know why he affected me so much. i hate the fact that i walk right pass him and he looks straight at me. =\
on the other hand i think im starting to like someone else. but unfortunatly he is prohibited. cuz my best friend likes him a lot![im not the type of person who likes to hurt friends] so yea right now my life is going horribly wrong. and what really sux is that im trying to forget about *&%$#@, but my "friend" always bring him up [one way or another]. so yea not even my "friend" is helping me. i hate so much people this year. this year i learned that i shouldnt trust EVERYONE, and not everyone is my friend, even though they pretend to be. i hate the fact that i actually confided in "them" ("friend") and i actually told them what i felt and i told them personal things... then they fucking stab me in the back with it! ugh i hate people like that.i hate to say it but i have very few TRUE friends in this school.
whatever . . ONE more year! and then its buh bye fucking hypocrits/assholes!
[ps] mind you, i do have some TRUE friends ;) [they should know who they are]
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i have two options:: 1. get him to listen to me and try to work things out with him. 2. forget him COMPLETLEY pretend he doesnt even exist and pretend that i EVER met him.
obviously it is going to be hard. i mean either one, i choose its going to be difficult. but i have to decide. My life has changed because of him him--> weird cuz me and him were never together.
People always tell me "oh forget about him blah blah". but its not easy. i dont know why he affected me so much. i hate the fact that i walk right pass him and he looks straight at me. =\
on the other hand i think im starting to like someone else. but unfortunatly he is prohibited. cuz my best friend likes him a lot![im not the type of person who likes to hurt friends] so yea right now my life is going horribly wrong. and what really sux is that im trying to forget about *&%$#@, but my "friend" always bring him up [one way or another]. so yea not even my "friend" is helping me. i hate so much people this year. this year i learned that i shouldnt trust EVERYONE, and not everyone is my friend, even though they pretend to be. i hate the fact that i actually confided in "them" ("friend") and i actually told them what i felt and i told them personal things... then they fucking stab me in the back with it! ugh i hate people like that.i hate to say it but i have very few TRUE friends in this school.
whatever . . ONE more year! and then its buh bye fucking hypocrits/assholes!
[ps] mind you, i do have some TRUE friends ;) [they should know who they are]
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