Seriously considering never eating food ever again.
If there is one important thing I've learned this past year, its that everyday I am still discovering what kind of person I am. The days are unpredictable; every morning when I wake, I ask myself, "ok, is today going to be a good day? or what do you hate about yourself today? or why do you care so much? just do whatever!" It feels like these past few weeks especially have been a sort of internal battle between two paths, which sucks but I assume its pretty base for people my age.
But I do see unhappiness becoming a more common trend in my life. I think it's just part of who I am; I am never at rest, but instead constantly thinking of what I could do to improve or how I could change or where I could go. I don't like settling! I want to be the ideal me! But my mind (which wants the ideal) is up against my body (which doesn't give a flying fuck); and when my body is as tired and worn as it is right now, it is stubborn. Let me tell you.
So its rotten. Some days reflect the needs of my spirit, and some reflect the needs of my body. It is a contradiction that is causing me frustration and unrest! I am unhappy because I don't know what to do with myself!
BIG FAT HEAVY SIGH ELECTRONICALLY INSERTED HERE.
On a lighter note, prom was last night. It was pretty fun; it was cliche, but I think that sort of adds to the spirit of the whole event.
We had a small little group this year...we're uncool.
My mom is all for the candid shots.
Skuttlebutt and Hopeashmope.
Me and Bubbaloo.
Just another cute group photo. Nice tan lines, betch.
Annnnd a personal favorite.
Wow. I graduate in nine days.
But I do see unhappiness becoming a more common trend in my life. I think it's just part of who I am; I am never at rest, but instead constantly thinking of what I could do to improve or how I could change or where I could go. I don't like settling! I want to be the ideal me! But my mind (which wants the ideal) is up against my body (which doesn't give a flying fuck); and when my body is as tired and worn as it is right now, it is stubborn. Let me tell you.
So its rotten. Some days reflect the needs of my spirit, and some reflect the needs of my body. It is a contradiction that is causing me frustration and unrest! I am unhappy because I don't know what to do with myself!
BIG FAT HEAVY SIGH ELECTRONICALLY INSERTED HERE.
On a lighter note, prom was last night. It was pretty fun; it was cliche, but I think that sort of adds to the spirit of the whole event.
We had a small little group this year...we're uncool.
My mom is all for the candid shots.
Skuttlebutt and Hopeashmope.
Me and Bubbaloo.
Just another cute group photo. Nice tan lines, betch.
Annnnd a personal favorite.
Wow. I graduate in nine days.