i came to have a party
1 week left. im happy. u have no idea. i think im almost positive im not gonna play school ball next year. i mean, if i made varsity id ride the bench, n i couldnt go another year w/ puma on jv. im surprised he hasnt kicked me off the team as it is seeing as hes benched me twice now. but then i thought about liv today, she knew how horrible it was for me last year n how i fight w/ puma this year n she duznt wanna play. i feel bad cuz shes so good at soccer n looks up to me n if i dont try out theres no way she would. i realized i have always felt like i HAVE to play soccer, like for college or sumthing. i kno im not good enough for college ball, and soccer's the only sport i've ever loved and stuck w/. i feel like i cant play it just for fun. i have to play it to live it.idk what to do. tryouts gives me sumthing to work for n keeps up what lil footskills i have for club ball.
anyway, we had a party tonight for us jv girls. i love them, it was so much fun. i cant wait till club too. some of those girls r coming out for our team, we're gonna be so good! i hope we make it up to premier this fall for our last season. its crazy to think i only have 2 seasons left w/ the FIRE. ive grown up w/ all these girls since 6th grade. in november we have to send hannah away to college, one of the 3 remaining original players. im gonna cry. and o man at the end of senior year, woo baby. all tears. i could never leave these girls. its crazy to think steve has been my only coach ever cuz puma definitely duznt count. hes taught me everything i know.
hit me up.
-----lex--
.maybe i got lucky.
anyway, we had a party tonight for us jv girls. i love them, it was so much fun. i cant wait till club too. some of those girls r coming out for our team, we're gonna be so good! i hope we make it up to premier this fall for our last season. its crazy to think i only have 2 seasons left w/ the FIRE. ive grown up w/ all these girls since 6th grade. in november we have to send hannah away to college, one of the 3 remaining original players. im gonna cry. and o man at the end of senior year, woo baby. all tears. i could never leave these girls. its crazy to think steve has been my only coach ever cuz puma definitely duznt count. hes taught me everything i know.
hit me up.
-----lex--
.maybe i got lucky.