hold me close
lets go all the way, forget about all the things we hate about the things we never said
i anticipate any chance to get away and alleviate the pain- never heard of it
so this past week has been crazy. too much drama thats total bs and a waste of my time to deal with. it did drive me to work harder during training every night tho which is cool i guess.
ah im so mad im sick right before tryouts! i cant work out as well as i need to be.. im glad that atleast i know i wont be sick during tryouts or during the season if im lucky. plus my continual sneezing is kinda funny.
i need a job so bad. im checkin out that shopping center coming in at the front of DL. i figured out if i worked a few hours on a couple weeknights when i wont have games if i make the team and on weekends i could make around 300 $ a month at minimum wage. thats about 100 $ profit after insurance and gas (once i get a car).... (hopefully my calculations were correct.)
with all this stressful stuff going on my emotions are the last thing i can figure out. i was so mad about ppl talkin shit that im numb to it now and my patience is thin. -am i ever really patient? not really. gotta remember to work on that- im nervous about tryouts. i think i like that special sum1 again, but i dont want to push anything until im sure this time. i dont like being confused n messing w/ ppls minds bcuz of it.
anyway... the circus is coming and i am dying to go. i feel like a lil kid, but c'mon... who duznt love the circus? u kno u do. i think i mite go friday night after the championship indoor game if we make it to it. whats going on for the superbowl? i dont wanna go w/ the rents to sum soccer family party, thats for sure.
im declaring next sunday girls day. i gotta get together w/ yall n chill n talk n stuff.
well im out, much love
--- Lex-
..lets fall asleep together right here..