Excuse me, but do I know you?
Geez, you look kinda familiar. Hell, you look better than the last time I saw you! Did you get a makeover?
Oh, I forgot I gave you one!
Well, pleased to meet you again anyway! So how has life been? Has life been kind to you? I know it is kinda hard on you, with so much advances to keep up with. I was kinda worried that you might have died, or been totally erased, eradicated and obsolete. Its a good thing I still managed to find you!
Well, life has been "comme ci, comme ca" for me. I did finally managed to leave MAC after much debate, keen to start afresh as a freelance makeup artist, but that kinda went a little slow.
So I am back at MAC, but as a part timer.
I know, I know, you're probably scoffing at me now, or rolling around on the ground laughing your behind off. Or thinking I am the biggest loser and idiot ever, but hey, I need to feed myself right? Freelance jobs have been few and far between, so I had to fill up those gaps right? I mean, who doesn't worry about income?
Yes, still the same old complaining self that I am, but what can I do? The funny thing is, with the freedom, comes the many, many hours of pondering (yet again). I felt that I have lost my passion, and do not know where to find it again. Hell, I don't even know if I feel like finding it back. Radical as it seems, I am even contemplating a career change.
I just feel so lost right now. Hell, I even feel lost at this point on how to even continue writing about how lost I am!
Anyway I just don't know. Maybe its the gloomy weather. Maybe its the end of the year, and you think back on what you have accomplished and you feel like you have somehow fallen short on what you had thought the year to be. I call it December Depression. And this feeling is totally oh so sucky.
Well, I shall not bore you further with my December Depression rants.
Generally, life is still the same. I still have my wonderful friends around me, and I guess I should be grateful for that.
I at least have a semblance of a job, so I can still have my occasional splurges.
And oh, at least I managed to (finally) go on a trip that I so desired since leaving the job as a full time.
I still have a home, a room and a bed to come back to. And I should be thankful my parents, albeit not being supportive about my decision and my life, has tolerated it kinda well so far?
Oh, and I forgot to mention I still haven't found love and companionship that I so yearned? But the funny thing is, I'm kinda ok with that (non)development. Well, at least the pangs of longing has kinda subsided to half yearly affairs rather than an any other day affair.
Well, I shall not bore you further with my mundane life. I wish it were more exciting, you know. But so far, its just been like so.
Anyway its the season of hope and joy, so here's hoping a new year will be a better year, I guess.
Its really great to rediscover you, old friend.
I do hope I will see you again more often.
If I do not see you before Christmas, Merry Christmas!
Oh, I forgot I gave you one!
Well, pleased to meet you again anyway! So how has life been? Has life been kind to you? I know it is kinda hard on you, with so much advances to keep up with. I was kinda worried that you might have died, or been totally erased, eradicated and obsolete. Its a good thing I still managed to find you!
Well, life has been "comme ci, comme ca" for me. I did finally managed to leave MAC after much debate, keen to start afresh as a freelance makeup artist, but that kinda went a little slow.
So I am back at MAC, but as a part timer.
I know, I know, you're probably scoffing at me now, or rolling around on the ground laughing your behind off. Or thinking I am the biggest loser and idiot ever, but hey, I need to feed myself right? Freelance jobs have been few and far between, so I had to fill up those gaps right? I mean, who doesn't worry about income?
Yes, still the same old complaining self that I am, but what can I do? The funny thing is, with the freedom, comes the many, many hours of pondering (yet again). I felt that I have lost my passion, and do not know where to find it again. Hell, I don't even know if I feel like finding it back. Radical as it seems, I am even contemplating a career change.
I just feel so lost right now. Hell, I even feel lost at this point on how to even continue writing about how lost I am!
Anyway I just don't know. Maybe its the gloomy weather. Maybe its the end of the year, and you think back on what you have accomplished and you feel like you have somehow fallen short on what you had thought the year to be. I call it December Depression. And this feeling is totally oh so sucky.
Well, I shall not bore you further with my December Depression rants.
Generally, life is still the same. I still have my wonderful friends around me, and I guess I should be grateful for that.
I at least have a semblance of a job, so I can still have my occasional splurges.
And oh, at least I managed to (finally) go on a trip that I so desired since leaving the job as a full time.
I still have a home, a room and a bed to come back to. And I should be thankful my parents, albeit not being supportive about my decision and my life, has tolerated it kinda well so far?
Oh, and I forgot to mention I still haven't found love and companionship that I so yearned? But the funny thing is, I'm kinda ok with that (non)development. Well, at least the pangs of longing has kinda subsided to half yearly affairs rather than an any other day affair.
Well, I shall not bore you further with my mundane life. I wish it were more exciting, you know. But so far, its just been like so.
Anyway its the season of hope and joy, so here's hoping a new year will be a better year, I guess.
Its really great to rediscover you, old friend.
I do hope I will see you again more often.
If I do not see you before Christmas, Merry Christmas!