another day to pass..
today was another eventful day. work sucked as usual...tony was working and i was going to ask him if i could become a cashier but by the time i had a chance, he had left and gone home. grrr.. i'm sick of always running around in the heat to get carts, coming back in to bag a huge order and then going back out to recollect carts...whatever...i wasn't even into working. i was acting a bit strange, i wasnt the usual happy self that i am when i work. i felt a little uneasy and i didnt really converse much. besides, next week i'm gonna start my search for a new job. i still want that job as a server at cheeburger cheeburger. they hire at 16, and if i get at least 100 dollars a weekend, i'll be able to help around with some financial situations in my house..
it looks as though, my dickhead stepfather won't be coming thru to help us out financially like he said he would..if he wasnt soo fucked up in the head, he would be able to assist my mom. the damn man told us he had in his possession 3 grand to give to us, but when he came here from guatemala, he claimed to have nothing. but whatever, he totally lost touch with reality. every thing he says is just a dream he has in his head. but in reality, he thinks nothing..all he envisions is him getting back together with my mom and living a happy life again with his family. but he lost it all...he lost it to a whore, who just wanted him for his money..
::sigh:: my stepdad called my house yesterday, and it said Motel 6 or sumthing on called ID, and i forgot he was staying in a hotel, so i picked it up and said Hello? and he said 'Christian....how are you, its good to hear your voice again...' ...i wasnt expecting him to be on the phone, and shit was i pissed to be talking to him. i havent spoke with him since january when me and my mom permanently kicked him out of the house. i wanted to curse that motherfucker out, but no i didnt,i acted civilived and said i was good and asked him if he wanted to talk to my mom and i put my mom on the line..my mom told me today that my stepdad was overjoyed that i spoke to him, and that i was nice to him...but i didnt care..it may be cold, but you dont know the whole story of what he did to devestate his own family..so from your perspective you may see it was cruel and biased, but i know what i'm talking about..
after my mom informed me today about how my dad wasnt gonna help us out with our money troubles, i almost got into my car and drove over to the hotel and have a little chat with him... but i didnt, i held back on my anger..like i usually do..
my scapegoat for the night was my night out. i first went to publix to get groceries, and saw kristen sajak for the first time in a while, saw kristin sabrosky and laura, and all three always seem to put a smile on my face, no matter what my mood is. alyssa "helped" me take out my three bags of groceries and she finally remembered my name and found out that i live in her neighborhood, even though she has actually seen me there and asked me if i lived here. but anyways after that, i came home, ate my enchiladas my sister made and headed over to stephanie's house, and laura got off of work soon after and came over. laura and steph ate and whispered to each other, while me and dan, steph's brother, played espn NFL2005. i got shutout, 34-0. but its all good. and while we were doin create-a-player for laura theExplora and Dirty Mexican, steph's grandpa's blood sugar level came down and paramedics came...i wasnt exactly sure what to do, whether to help out or not. i never been in a situation like that. laura just told me to sit and stay out of their way, and she was right, it was the best thing to do. i also got to sit in a toyota supra, which was a hot car...i'm pissed i wont be able to take a ride in it..but its all good cuz laura sucks at atv hockey. and steph, u just suck cuz ur gonna drive a supra...bitches :-D
til next time everybody..goodnight
it looks as though, my dickhead stepfather won't be coming thru to help us out financially like he said he would..if he wasnt soo fucked up in the head, he would be able to assist my mom. the damn man told us he had in his possession 3 grand to give to us, but when he came here from guatemala, he claimed to have nothing. but whatever, he totally lost touch with reality. every thing he says is just a dream he has in his head. but in reality, he thinks nothing..all he envisions is him getting back together with my mom and living a happy life again with his family. but he lost it all...he lost it to a whore, who just wanted him for his money..
::sigh:: my stepdad called my house yesterday, and it said Motel 6 or sumthing on called ID, and i forgot he was staying in a hotel, so i picked it up and said Hello? and he said 'Christian....how are you, its good to hear your voice again...' ...i wasnt expecting him to be on the phone, and shit was i pissed to be talking to him. i havent spoke with him since january when me and my mom permanently kicked him out of the house. i wanted to curse that motherfucker out, but no i didnt,i acted civilived and said i was good and asked him if he wanted to talk to my mom and i put my mom on the line..my mom told me today that my stepdad was overjoyed that i spoke to him, and that i was nice to him...but i didnt care..it may be cold, but you dont know the whole story of what he did to devestate his own family..so from your perspective you may see it was cruel and biased, but i know what i'm talking about..
after my mom informed me today about how my dad wasnt gonna help us out with our money troubles, i almost got into my car and drove over to the hotel and have a little chat with him... but i didnt, i held back on my anger..like i usually do..
my scapegoat for the night was my night out. i first went to publix to get groceries, and saw kristen sajak for the first time in a while, saw kristin sabrosky and laura, and all three always seem to put a smile on my face, no matter what my mood is. alyssa "helped" me take out my three bags of groceries and she finally remembered my name and found out that i live in her neighborhood, even though she has actually seen me there and asked me if i lived here. but anyways after that, i came home, ate my enchiladas my sister made and headed over to stephanie's house, and laura got off of work soon after and came over. laura and steph ate and whispered to each other, while me and dan, steph's brother, played espn NFL2005. i got shutout, 34-0. but its all good. and while we were doin create-a-player for laura theExplora and Dirty Mexican, steph's grandpa's blood sugar level came down and paramedics came...i wasnt exactly sure what to do, whether to help out or not. i never been in a situation like that. laura just told me to sit and stay out of their way, and she was right, it was the best thing to do. i also got to sit in a toyota supra, which was a hot car...i'm pissed i wont be able to take a ride in it..but its all good cuz laura sucks at atv hockey. and steph, u just suck cuz ur gonna drive a supra...bitches :-D
til next time everybody..goodnight