rigorous contempt of a young man's life..
A lot went on this week..my ex-stepdad came to "help" with the payment of our house, claiming he had money to help but when we got down to business, he told my mom he didnt have any...well he did, cuz he payed for the electricity bill, and for my car and other stuff that i don't recall...life in my household has been uneasily stressful. i normally am confined to my room but recently all my mothers worries have really been distracting me from concentrating and remembering..i suppose thats the reason my memory has been a bit unretentive, which is suprisingly unlike me, because i remember a lot of things i say. and to put it worse i been saying some things which i have put my foot in my mouth or said things without thinking..i would just like to consolidate myself and actually become the better person that i used to be..the one who always smiled (i was nicknamed smily by one of my friends once)..it may be funny but i miss being called that now..i used to be more garrulous, and attentative..but my personality has changed, not drastically, but i've noticed a thing or two..i never got pissed up until this year, like really pissed..i think i've cried more times since november than i have all my life. the car accident during the beginning of the summer just added more trauma. and my summer camp was ruined, socially i mean. i felt like i couldnt communicate with the other counselors, but towards the end of camp i started feeling happier, starting hanging out with friends that i feel completely comfortable with. that i can just mess around with or act all stupid, or serious, or joke around with, or laugh with for no good reason.
so to levin (sp.?), and flores, and carmichael,and simpson, and fritts,...thnx for helping me become a more content person by simple laughing, and asking me how i'm doing and talking about funny shit, or silly dance celebration moves, and goin to the gym with me, and talkin about building 'potata bombs' or guns or whatever its called, and making monkey bread, and being a pyro-maniac, and sitting in a Toyota Supra, and riding on tiny small bikes, and funny ass fake wrestling matches, and movies and hours of working together, and hugs and tickling and spasing out cuz of it... and being reminded oftenly that i am loved by my friends, whether you say it out loud or not; my summer would have been just flat out horrible if it wasnt for you all. i appreciate it greatly.
Publix Whores of Summer 2004...exept Flores, she works elsewhere and not with us! eww but i still love you!
so to levin (sp.?), and flores, and carmichael,and simpson, and fritts,...thnx for helping me become a more content person by simple laughing, and asking me how i'm doing and talking about funny shit, or silly dance celebration moves, and goin to the gym with me, and talkin about building 'potata bombs' or guns or whatever its called, and making monkey bread, and being a pyro-maniac, and sitting in a Toyota Supra, and riding on tiny small bikes, and funny ass fake wrestling matches, and movies and hours of working together, and hugs and tickling and spasing out cuz of it... and being reminded oftenly that i am loved by my friends, whether you say it out loud or not; my summer would have been just flat out horrible if it wasnt for you all. i appreciate it greatly.
Publix Whores of Summer 2004...exept Flores, she works elsewhere and not with us! eww but i still love you!