lacking in the sleep department
So its almost 3 am and yet again I really can't sleep. I do have a lot on my mind right now some stuff I am going to talk about and some that I am not sure about so I am not going to talk about those.
I finally got the okay from Medicaid and then they sent me another letter that said since I turned 21 I am no longer eligible for medicaid and so I am screwed on how I am gonna pay for my doctor appt. and all my meds... this is really starting to drive me nuts and I just wanna cry.
Second I am just still haveing a hard time dealing with this I hate it when I want to eat what ever is in my face and I really can't... I also hate eating times because I really can't eat when I want I just have to make sure its five hours after my last shot... not speaking of the shots those are starting to drive me nutty too... they some times hurt and some times don't they some time bleed and some times don't... they also leave bruises in some spots and well it just really sucks.
I am trying my god damn hardest to lose weight and well I don't think I am doing it but everyone around me seems to think the other way. yes my pants and shirts are a lot looser then what they used to be but still I think I am gaining weight b/c I really don't do much.
I am still without a car b/c my brother is still borrowing it... now that is fucking pissing me off b/c I want my car and I want it now I like to drive my car b/c I am familar with it and well James car scares me b/c it feels like it is gonna stall some times. GAH
Other than that I had a really decent weekend got to finally meet Nick who seems to be a really nice and sweet guy.. we might be rooming with each other next year when I make my Fabulous return to MSU... YAY
well I am gonna watch what I missed of adult swim... YAY adult swim
Peace out
Parker...
p.s. I also really miss all my friends but I figured everyone already knew that...
I finally got the okay from Medicaid and then they sent me another letter that said since I turned 21 I am no longer eligible for medicaid and so I am screwed on how I am gonna pay for my doctor appt. and all my meds... this is really starting to drive me nuts and I just wanna cry.
Second I am just still haveing a hard time dealing with this I hate it when I want to eat what ever is in my face and I really can't... I also hate eating times because I really can't eat when I want I just have to make sure its five hours after my last shot... not speaking of the shots those are starting to drive me nutty too... they some times hurt and some times don't they some time bleed and some times don't... they also leave bruises in some spots and well it just really sucks.
I am trying my god damn hardest to lose weight and well I don't think I am doing it but everyone around me seems to think the other way. yes my pants and shirts are a lot looser then what they used to be but still I think I am gaining weight b/c I really don't do much.
I am still without a car b/c my brother is still borrowing it... now that is fucking pissing me off b/c I want my car and I want it now I like to drive my car b/c I am familar with it and well James car scares me b/c it feels like it is gonna stall some times. GAH
Other than that I had a really decent weekend got to finally meet Nick who seems to be a really nice and sweet guy.. we might be rooming with each other next year when I make my Fabulous return to MSU... YAY
well I am gonna watch what I missed of adult swim... YAY adult swim
Peace out
Parker...
p.s. I also really miss all my friends but I figured everyone already knew that...