so i've been thinking........
that which never a good thing, what are dreams really about? i woke up crying a couple of nights ago due to a dream i had. it wasnt a "im running for my life cause something is about to kill me" dream, but a more "if this were to really happen i dont know what i would do" dream. i have been feeling guilty about something that i havent done, something that i need to do before it's to late. im scared that i will mess things up like i always do when it comes to these kinds of issues. i dont know whether to take a chance and open my heart or just be as close hearted as i have been for the past couple of years.
no this isnt about a guy or anything, this is about my family. i havent cried in front of my family in a really long time, i like to remain close hearted while around them. as bad as it sounds sometimes they like to take emotions as a sign of weakness.
ok this is what has been bothering me....
my aunt is dying, she is like my best friend and one of the very few people i can turn to when i have a problem, now she is slowly leaving and i dont know what to do. i havent talked to her in a while and that is what i feel guilty about. last time i saw her in person was thanksgiving of this year. and honestly nobody knows how long she is going to be around. her birthday is april 17th, two days before mine. i dont know if this will be the last time that i get to spend that with her.
i just hope by the time that i get home i will get a chance to go visit her, and talk to her, spend time with her before its to late. i hope that what i woke up crying about the other night doesnt come true.
i hope that those of you that actually took the time to read this will keep her in your prayers.
thanks,
jenn castro
no this isnt about a guy or anything, this is about my family. i havent cried in front of my family in a really long time, i like to remain close hearted while around them. as bad as it sounds sometimes they like to take emotions as a sign of weakness.
ok this is what has been bothering me....
my aunt is dying, she is like my best friend and one of the very few people i can turn to when i have a problem, now she is slowly leaving and i dont know what to do. i havent talked to her in a while and that is what i feel guilty about. last time i saw her in person was thanksgiving of this year. and honestly nobody knows how long she is going to be around. her birthday is april 17th, two days before mine. i dont know if this will be the last time that i get to spend that with her.
i just hope by the time that i get home i will get a chance to go visit her, and talk to her, spend time with her before its to late. i hope that what i woke up crying about the other night doesnt come true.
i hope that those of you that actually took the time to read this will keep her in your prayers.
thanks,
jenn castro