So....
I don't know why I'm in such a writing mood lately... maybe i have a lot on my mind, I don't know anymore
This week my period (yes i know TMI) showed up... and so did all the lovely side effects.... nausea, cramps, migraines, anemic... So much fun... Yeah I have stuff to make me numb to it... I say numb because it doesn't hurt but i can still feel it happening... And this might be one of the triggers for my migraines...
Like I have been saying, I had one blow up while at work... I didn't go home then cause I was watching self check and we we're barely holding our own yesterday... Today i woke up, it was still piercing so I medicated myself well and have slept most of the day. And now having a Doctor Who binge... Why? I ran out of stuff to watch so I got curious and its free on amazon prime :P
The show itself isn't bad, I like the historical episodes, and really avoid the serious brain screw ones cause they make no sense. Do I want some of the stuff? I wouldn't care if somebody got me something for a gift...
Speaking of someone... One of my guy friends that I have gotten close to since starting at work, if I'm not mistaken, has been flirting with me... and yeah he's one of those friends that I can talk about a lot of medical problems... and some ways to fix stuff like that... The one time he was telling me about one of those problems I had some stomach relief meds in my work bag/ purse... I think it was one of the next days he asked while i was on a register if he could grab some out of my purse... I said sure and he went off... the bookkeeper walked by and started to give me crap again about us being "friends" because i was going thru my bag... I said so what and yeah.... its not like i had any feminine products in there so i wasn't worried, so I don't know what the deal was...
And I think it was the other day when i shadowed somebody, they didn't have cashier numbers, so i lent mine for the time being... an hour or two later she was doing fine on her own... since i can't put my numbers into to registers at once i was watching the self check with my said friend. I mean it wasn't busy at all during that evening. So I was covering self check and CSM breaks... And so the both of us were jabbering a bit while we were working, telling war stories from the hospital and such... and the little things like pretending to be my shadow, and nudging me with a stray shopping cart... I don't know... maybe i'm reading to much into it... Anytime i ask if he wants to hang out somewhere "I get a I'll think about it", and I automatically guess that he would make up his mind between now and then... Kinda when I got a group together and went to the mall... my brother (the third wheel) kinda bullied him into coming... but i have a suspicion that he was so proud of himself for winning a toothless plushie and handing it to me (since I love toothless)... I have it still sitting on my chair. It would have been nice to go somewhere like valleyfair or renfest with him this year, but out work schedules are kind of different now days and neither of us drive... Yeah valleyfair is mostly rides, but there are other fun things to do and ren fest is a fun place to window shop and watch a few shows...
I mean even if those aren't probable, movies are always fun... I've tried and failed that too a couple of times I was home from college...
Another thought that crossed my mind is: "why do most of my guy friends show up late when we hang out?" I really don't know why, but I get anxious when our agreed time comes and passes... I don't know if its worry or what... but whatever it is, it does a number to my insides... And I'm not always oblivious about it either, when you pull out the gentlemanly side of you cause you were late or something like that. I'm not angry, just disappointed that plans didn't work out as well as i hoped.
Whats it like to be home alone to me? Its makes me feel lonely, isolated. So being at work is a social outing of sorts for me... Long stays at home or just being alone can drive me crazy sometimes..
So this is just an after thought... If anybody is reading this... here's a wishlist when my birthday comes... not being selfish, just making it easier for you guys.
- Nothing as far as christmas-y thanksgiving themed clothing etc. I have plenty of that from over the years.(unless it is for a christmas present)
-Manga is ok, great in fact if you know what I read.
-No games thanks, I've got preorders for the ones I really want
-Just having lunch or dinner together is fine, nothing really expensive and fancy is completely ok
-A Movie is a great option too
- Clothes... no thanks, i have tons and get tons as gifts each year.
- I choose cookies over cake
-TCGs are fine...
- plushies are fine too, if you know my eclectic tastes.
-frogs are cool, so are rubber ducks and dragons
- I have no particular favorite color, although just not fond of yellow.
- I don't mind a thing for my hair: clips hairbands, hairbinders
-Jewelry, not sure about this one... I don't wear a lot of it and I have no piercings. Maybe necklaces would be okay...
I'll just leave the rest to your imagination... I'm not picky about stuff, anything is fine really... these sort of things would surprise me though :)
This week my period (yes i know TMI) showed up... and so did all the lovely side effects.... nausea, cramps, migraines, anemic... So much fun... Yeah I have stuff to make me numb to it... I say numb because it doesn't hurt but i can still feel it happening... And this might be one of the triggers for my migraines...
Like I have been saying, I had one blow up while at work... I didn't go home then cause I was watching self check and we we're barely holding our own yesterday... Today i woke up, it was still piercing so I medicated myself well and have slept most of the day. And now having a Doctor Who binge... Why? I ran out of stuff to watch so I got curious and its free on amazon prime :P
The show itself isn't bad, I like the historical episodes, and really avoid the serious brain screw ones cause they make no sense. Do I want some of the stuff? I wouldn't care if somebody got me something for a gift...
Speaking of someone... One of my guy friends that I have gotten close to since starting at work, if I'm not mistaken, has been flirting with me... and yeah he's one of those friends that I can talk about a lot of medical problems... and some ways to fix stuff like that... The one time he was telling me about one of those problems I had some stomach relief meds in my work bag/ purse... I think it was one of the next days he asked while i was on a register if he could grab some out of my purse... I said sure and he went off... the bookkeeper walked by and started to give me crap again about us being "friends" because i was going thru my bag... I said so what and yeah.... its not like i had any feminine products in there so i wasn't worried, so I don't know what the deal was...
And I think it was the other day when i shadowed somebody, they didn't have cashier numbers, so i lent mine for the time being... an hour or two later she was doing fine on her own... since i can't put my numbers into to registers at once i was watching the self check with my said friend. I mean it wasn't busy at all during that evening. So I was covering self check and CSM breaks... And so the both of us were jabbering a bit while we were working, telling war stories from the hospital and such... and the little things like pretending to be my shadow, and nudging me with a stray shopping cart... I don't know... maybe i'm reading to much into it... Anytime i ask if he wants to hang out somewhere "I get a I'll think about it", and I automatically guess that he would make up his mind between now and then... Kinda when I got a group together and went to the mall... my brother (the third wheel) kinda bullied him into coming... but i have a suspicion that he was so proud of himself for winning a toothless plushie and handing it to me (since I love toothless)... I have it still sitting on my chair. It would have been nice to go somewhere like valleyfair or renfest with him this year, but out work schedules are kind of different now days and neither of us drive... Yeah valleyfair is mostly rides, but there are other fun things to do and ren fest is a fun place to window shop and watch a few shows...
I mean even if those aren't probable, movies are always fun... I've tried and failed that too a couple of times I was home from college...
Another thought that crossed my mind is: "why do most of my guy friends show up late when we hang out?" I really don't know why, but I get anxious when our agreed time comes and passes... I don't know if its worry or what... but whatever it is, it does a number to my insides... And I'm not always oblivious about it either, when you pull out the gentlemanly side of you cause you were late or something like that. I'm not angry, just disappointed that plans didn't work out as well as i hoped.
Whats it like to be home alone to me? Its makes me feel lonely, isolated. So being at work is a social outing of sorts for me... Long stays at home or just being alone can drive me crazy sometimes..
So this is just an after thought... If anybody is reading this... here's a wishlist when my birthday comes... not being selfish, just making it easier for you guys.
- Nothing as far as christmas-y thanksgiving themed clothing etc. I have plenty of that from over the years.(unless it is for a christmas present)
-Manga is ok, great in fact if you know what I read.
-No games thanks, I've got preorders for the ones I really want
-Just having lunch or dinner together is fine, nothing really expensive and fancy is completely ok
-A Movie is a great option too
- Clothes... no thanks, i have tons and get tons as gifts each year.
- I choose cookies over cake
-TCGs are fine...
- plushies are fine too, if you know my eclectic tastes.
-frogs are cool, so are rubber ducks and dragons
- I have no particular favorite color, although just not fond of yellow.
- I don't mind a thing for my hair: clips hairbands, hairbinders
-Jewelry, not sure about this one... I don't wear a lot of it and I have no piercings. Maybe necklaces would be okay...
I'll just leave the rest to your imagination... I'm not picky about stuff, anything is fine really... these sort of things would surprise me though :)