at work.
it's been an uneventful morning. not very many calls...well, except for the call that came as i was typing that. funny. anyhow, it's been pretty boring. i feel like i should be doing something but there's nothing to do until my boss gives me something. i feel like a slacker.
i also feel like a bad mother. i know, i know. it's absolutely and completely necessary for me to work and be away from karuna but...ugh. it really hurts when she wakes up in the middle of every night, calling for her grandma. it's so hard to go from a full-time stay at home mom to a full-time working mom. i guess i'm just jealous when i need to be happy she's close with her grandmother. still...i'm selfish. she's growing up so quickly and i want to take it all in while i can. not-so-nice thoughts go through my head when i hear her calling for her grandma (my mom, which makes it even worse!) and i feel like shit even more. i'm such a fucking head case sometimes.
i'm hating my haircut. it looked AWESOME the day i had it done but i don't have the time or equipment to make it look like that again. i fail.
i can't wait for warmer weather. i need more sunshine in my life.
i also feel like a bad mother. i know, i know. it's absolutely and completely necessary for me to work and be away from karuna but...ugh. it really hurts when she wakes up in the middle of every night, calling for her grandma. it's so hard to go from a full-time stay at home mom to a full-time working mom. i guess i'm just jealous when i need to be happy she's close with her grandmother. still...i'm selfish. she's growing up so quickly and i want to take it all in while i can. not-so-nice thoughts go through my head when i hear her calling for her grandma (my mom, which makes it even worse!) and i feel like shit even more. i'm such a fucking head case sometimes.
i'm hating my haircut. it looked AWESOME the day i had it done but i don't have the time or equipment to make it look like that again. i fail.
i can't wait for warmer weather. i need more sunshine in my life.