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life here is better than past semesters..its pretty good, but im not really sure what im doing
where do i want to go-do-i dunno--the limitations are soo confusing-grad schools-jobs-i wish i could just do what i want to do
- i dunno anymore
i miss you all-im sorry we're not in high school anymore-thats over
and i love you all but according to how the last two summers went--this is near the end--come on--few of us will ever stay in touch--im not coming back this summer to st louis-i'll be in madison
and though i dearly wish you all could have come with me to madison-we all just choose diff paths
prob those reading this well its more likely i'm staying in touch w you, but i keep looking to the past and future-things i once did and loved- elements club, being in advance math with peoples (orienteering), so much, band, seeing pep at lunch and between classes...i wish there was more good in high school than there was and i could have cherished and enjoyed it better--but we all took classes we hated and wanted soo bad to get out of that building and start our lives---so we have---but now where will it lead us---far apart most likely---i haven't visited anyone and no one has visited me---yeah i dont have a car so moreof i CANNOT visit anyone-----although im coming to st louis the 21st of october (of whatever that weeekend is---so see me then--call me--make sure i don't miss you)---but i know moreof unless i visit pep they won't visit me---unless i called pep to hang out they wouldn't call me---it was few and far between that anyone back in high school called me first---except carter every once in a while, o and kris---everyone else just waited around--of course it got better during the years---but anyone you WANT to stay connected to make the effort (Kara) and im not talking about connecting to me, just know that whoever u feel close to from high school unless u actively stay in touch w them-it won't happen
my bfs from high school live far away and aren't coming back-they're too busy in their lives--i know one will try hard to stay connected but i don't know if it will work
BUT STILL NO MATTER HOW LONG IT IS TIL I SEE YOU ALL AGAIN---U ARE ALWAYS WELCOME AT MY DOOR--IF U LOOK ME UP IN 50 YEARS AND HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION WAS THE LAST TIME I TALKED TO YOU I WOULD STILL BE HAPPY TO SEE YOU....our friendship will never die---it just might need rekindling
o and for my siblings and cousins i know this will happen too-or maybe already has to a greater effect---i never see them--so much for wanting to live close and be a family---my sister has never once visited me in 3 years-i've visited her 5 times--she insulted my clothes this summer--and is prob reading this---well we'll be related and friendly but i'm not sure friends will ever come up again-since i entered high school she disliked me, my brother is too busy and stressed to hang out with me-i wish him the best--and i hope kelly does well and finds a career-and i hope i get to see fiona at least for several days once a year....and i hope tibits is happy and polly too and i know lucy is
where do i want to go-do-i dunno--the limitations are soo confusing-grad schools-jobs-i wish i could just do what i want to do
- i dunno anymore
i miss you all-im sorry we're not in high school anymore-thats over
and i love you all but according to how the last two summers went--this is near the end--come on--few of us will ever stay in touch--im not coming back this summer to st louis-i'll be in madison
and though i dearly wish you all could have come with me to madison-we all just choose diff paths
prob those reading this well its more likely i'm staying in touch w you, but i keep looking to the past and future-things i once did and loved- elements club, being in advance math with peoples (orienteering), so much, band, seeing pep at lunch and between classes...i wish there was more good in high school than there was and i could have cherished and enjoyed it better--but we all took classes we hated and wanted soo bad to get out of that building and start our lives---so we have---but now where will it lead us---far apart most likely---i haven't visited anyone and no one has visited me---yeah i dont have a car so moreof i CANNOT visit anyone-----although im coming to st louis the 21st of october (of whatever that weeekend is---so see me then--call me--make sure i don't miss you)---but i know moreof unless i visit pep they won't visit me---unless i called pep to hang out they wouldn't call me---it was few and far between that anyone back in high school called me first---except carter every once in a while, o and kris---everyone else just waited around--of course it got better during the years---but anyone you WANT to stay connected to make the effort (Kara) and im not talking about connecting to me, just know that whoever u feel close to from high school unless u actively stay in touch w them-it won't happen
my bfs from high school live far away and aren't coming back-they're too busy in their lives--i know one will try hard to stay connected but i don't know if it will work
BUT STILL NO MATTER HOW LONG IT IS TIL I SEE YOU ALL AGAIN---U ARE ALWAYS WELCOME AT MY DOOR--IF U LOOK ME UP IN 50 YEARS AND HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION WAS THE LAST TIME I TALKED TO YOU I WOULD STILL BE HAPPY TO SEE YOU....our friendship will never die---it just might need rekindling
o and for my siblings and cousins i know this will happen too-or maybe already has to a greater effect---i never see them--so much for wanting to live close and be a family---my sister has never once visited me in 3 years-i've visited her 5 times--she insulted my clothes this summer--and is prob reading this---well we'll be related and friendly but i'm not sure friends will ever come up again-since i entered high school she disliked me, my brother is too busy and stressed to hang out with me-i wish him the best--and i hope kelly does well and finds a career-and i hope i get to see fiona at least for several days once a year....and i hope tibits is happy and polly too and i know lucy is