grrr
yesterday i was feeling great or so i thought. I went to my other job bounced off the walls and went home had lots of sex with my boyfriend. I even took my medicine. Then I woke up and the nightmare resumes. That's the thing I hate about this the up and down. Why can't I just be like that all the time. Happy, engertic, multitasker, all those things. And then I wake up and here's reality again. I tired already and this is only the beging. I read all the post in here of people who have been on medication for years and they still feel the same way I do and I just started. I feel like it will never get better. Just when I think I'm getting better, I drop down and it's twice as worse. I've been at work for almost two hours consumed half a pot of coffee and I still feel like I want to crawl into bed, pull up the covers and never come out again. This sucks, when I was in the hosptial all those fucking doctors and therapist told me take your medicine Practice your stress management skills. Yeah that's all fine and dandy when your in a mental hospital and the outside world is behind MANY locked doors. But guess what that shit doesn't work in the real world. Why didn't they tell me that? And my doctor is suppose to be one of the best in the world. Well, why the hell did he leave that part out. I could stop taking my medicine, go back to smoking pot and be a lot better off than I am now.