is this love
yeah I'm at work and I'm jamin to bob marly is this love. I got everybody jammin', but that usual. "Is this love is love that i'm feeling". Bob always puts me in a good mood. I still have 31/2 hours until work is over so I needed a little pick me up. It's hard to be down when you're listening to this song. At least for me. I've been bored most of the day, and I know I have a bad case of the Mondays as my annoying co-worker likes to call them. Bob went off and reminded me why I'm writing. My weekend sucked I did a bad bad thing. I smoked pot of Saturday night and it was not a good experience. I felt horrible on sunday and couldn't get out of bed. I was lucky that my son was at his dad's. I finally pulled myself out of it around 7pm when my son came home.
But after I smoked I thought I was hearing voices and shit. I didn't like it at all. So I'm pretty sure, I won't be falling back into that again. My boyfriend says he doesn't understand the new me. I told him it's still me I'm just trying to work on myself so I can be happy. I want to be happy. Or at least normal, because happiness is a bit of a strech. I hate to admit it but I don't think we're going to make it. I think we're just going to grow apart. I'm trying so hard to hold on because I love him sooo much. But in the back of my mind I wondering if I should have to try this hard. It was never this hard before.
But after I smoked I thought I was hearing voices and shit. I didn't like it at all. So I'm pretty sure, I won't be falling back into that again. My boyfriend says he doesn't understand the new me. I told him it's still me I'm just trying to work on myself so I can be happy. I want to be happy. Or at least normal, because happiness is a bit of a strech. I hate to admit it but I don't think we're going to make it. I think we're just going to grow apart. I'm trying so hard to hold on because I love him sooo much. But in the back of my mind I wondering if I should have to try this hard. It was never this hard before.