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complaints about my life, something i do way too often. yay!
I don't like to do things.
Like, I like hanging out with friends and going to group events as much as the next person, but I don't really like...participating?
When I'm at school events or group hang-outs, I like talking and being friendly and just being there, not playing games. I'll talk with friends and laugh and make jokes, but the minute someone calls out a game of Ninja or soccer or Amazon Warriors, I'm out.
I don't particularly mind being the only person not doing anything, but sometimes I wish I could just...participate. And it's not like I'm being rebellious or high-and-mighty, it's not like I'm not participating for the heck of it. I just can't make myself.
And people notice. And it's like, whatever. I don't really care about being called a spoil-sport or an outsider (these are real things that have been said to me, like um mind your own business), but like. Sometimes it hurts? I don't know. It's not the worst thing in the world, but it still irks me.
Maybe I just need new friends.
I don't like to do things.
Like, I like hanging out with friends and going to group events as much as the next person, but I don't really like...participating?
When I'm at school events or group hang-outs, I like talking and being friendly and just being there, not playing games. I'll talk with friends and laugh and make jokes, but the minute someone calls out a game of Ninja or soccer or Amazon Warriors, I'm out.
I don't particularly mind being the only person not doing anything, but sometimes I wish I could just...participate. And it's not like I'm being rebellious or high-and-mighty, it's not like I'm not participating for the heck of it. I just can't make myself.
And people notice. And it's like, whatever. I don't really care about being called a spoil-sport or an outsider (these are real things that have been said to me, like um mind your own business), but like. Sometimes it hurts? I don't know. It's not the worst thing in the world, but it still irks me.
Maybe I just need new friends.