Jan 23, 2006 00:15
I am really hurting tonight.so let me be honest in a more brutal way than usual. Gods know I have spent my life trying to see the best in everyone else, no matter what. It doesn't always work, it's not always worth it.
Do you know what people? nothing in this world is important as honesty.
If you love someone, in any way, platonic or otherwise, tell them. The consequences won't always be what you expect, but that's not always a bad thing. Love hurts like hell, especially when you lose someone, but when you know that the experience was worth the pain...it doesn't make it better but it's something to hold on to.
And if you hate someone, tell them too, but give them the room to know why and maybe make amends...or not as the case may be. Worth a try in most cases. (I know that some bodies are beyond redemption, but really guys, when it gets to this level, that bunch looks smaller and more petty than it ever did). If after all that you are going to spend any time hating someone, make sure your reasons are valid, that you have evidence on your side, and that you can do something about it. Cause if you can't, what's the point? (that is a rhetorical question, I am still trying to figure that one out myself)
I'm trying to figure out if what is being represented has anything to do with reality, with the truth. I can find out, I hope. I hope it is real, and means some sort of hope is worth hanging on to. That truth will prevail, yadda yadda. Not the ugly suspected reality that has so far been proved right too often. Too much deep shit to put on a public forum. Having a psychotherapist as a sister-in-law may be a good thing.
Above all, always do what you fully believe is the RIGHT thing. Be true to yourself.