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applications [settled/taken from 5x13]
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Age/Appearance: "Do you know the myth about Earth-that-was?
That when she was born, she had no sky, and she was open, inviting and the stars would rush into her, through the skin of her, making the oceans boil with sensation, and when she could endure no more ecstasy, she puffed up her cheeks and blew out the sky, to womb her and keep them at bay, 'til she had rest." (™ Joss Whedon) Castiel's true age is largely unknown. Some speculate he was born at the beginning of time, or only 2000 years ago. Anyone's guess could be correct, for as long as the writing staff of Supernatural keep the information. I play him as being born at the creation of Earth.
History: Season Four and Season Five. If not thorough or detailed enough, a written history is available (though Castiel's pre-series history is largely unknown.)
Personality: Castiel's range of emotions is stunted and his ability to trust has been seriously hindered. Those are two facts about Castiel that should always be known. Even then his inherent sense of blind, often brutal, justice can be mistaken for emotions. To many, Castiel comes off as exactly this: emotionless. There's very little emotional leverage you can gain on Castiel, because Castiel does not open up easily, if at all, and probably just doesn't care about you. The only way for Castiel to actually feel concern (not to be mistaken for loyalty) for something is through extended periods of exposure; trusting that the extended periods of exposure went decently well. Not breaking the rules is a huge thing for Castiel, having been brought up to be completely obedient to his superiors. The only people Castiel has been rendered to be obedient to, through a series of betrayals and dirt-bag moves by his siblings, is himself and his father. Castiel's blind faith in his father is nearly as blind as his sense of right-or-wrong. Even if Castiel is helpful in certain ways, his own agenda, comprised of his own goals searching for his father, comes first. Castiel occasionally extends this loyalty out to other people. If this loyalty has been forged, Castiel becomes self-sacrificial to the point of abandoning things he figured he would never abandon. It's not an easy task to make that connection with Castiel, so be prepared for an extremely rocky ride.
Castiel has absolutely no tact when it comes to any situation. If he doesn't like you, he states it outright. If he likes you, he won't tell you. If he thinks you're untrustworthy, you will know. Castiel is cruel in the sense of he will only inform you of what he doesn't like about you. It's obvious in his body language, verbal and physical, if he likes you. But you'll never really get verbal confirmation about his positive feelings towards you. On top of that, when Castiel says "I'm sorry" he rarely means it and doesn't exactly know what it's like to forgive someone; in return, he doesn't know what it's like to be forgiven. Then again, neither is very important to him. Castiel is not someone who holds grudges; but once he's got one against you prepare to have it for life. And Castiel doesn't care if you like him or not; he's got a mission.
The most emotion you can coerce out of Castiel in any given moment is... straight up deadpan. He's not a friend, he's not really anything and that is made abundantly clear just through his mannerisms. That's all there is, a lackluster sense of humor (meaning he has none) and a seriousness that really can't be cracked. It's a rather severe example of what being an introvert is like. When Castiel can dodge human contact of any sorts, he does. This is one of the many things that renders Castiel extremely awkward in multiple situations. It also doesn't help that he is prime for showing up at the worst time possible. Don't want him to show up? Have some important errands to run? Castiel will show up 75% of the time.
Castiel has a habit of becoming a martyr for certain things. Specifically when something bigger than just himself is happening, Castiel takes it upon himself to do whatever it takes to succeed. This includes giving up his life. If the situation presents itself and there's no other way; Castiel simply steps up to the plate. Its bravery and confidence in himself and the people around him that makes Castiel able to take that step. Castiel's sense of self-preservation isn't exactly up to par, but in his mind he's simply doing what is necessary to win. Be it cutting himself open, betraying the only family he knows, or dying for a cause; Castiel delivers when it really counts.
Castiel is not someone you should approach for help when it comes to personal help. Be it moral or not, Castiel firmly believes you should be capable of helping yourself. He will explicitly state he's not around to help anyone, but around for himself; he's not there to be a friend or "perch on your shoulder." His moral relativity is different from others and Castiel just doesn't want to get tangled up emotionally with that kind of stuff- because he takes morality very seriously.
Sexual Preferences/Orientation: Castiel has lived all of his life as a sexless "perfect" being; the need of a physical body absent in Heaven, as well as the need for communion. In terms of Angels, they are supposed to be emotionless; the perfect soldier; which means the acts of love, lust, and other preludes to coupling are inherently absent to an Angels being. There has never been a need for Castiel to experience or have an opinion on sex, and so he has done neither.
When stationed on Earth, as were Castiel's orders, the fundamentals that kept Castiel from wanting sexual relations or having sexual preferences, started to come undone. With long exposure to humanity, to Dean and Sam Winchester along with the demon Ruby, a Fallen Angel Anna, and others, Castiel started feeling emotions and doubts. Castiel becomes aware of sex, in relation to Angels and thus himself, when previously mentioned former boss, Anna, engages in a physical (and arguably emotional) relationship with Dean, Castiel's charge. While Castiel knows that Anna is fallen, he sees her as something of an example; and Angel who has won regard from Dean and can feel emotional bonds, a quality Angels are absent of but Castiel is starting to register towards the Winchesters. Even once Anna regains her Grace, she retains the ability to feel and this on drags Castiel further into doubt.
It is not until Castiel abandons Heaven that starts becoming aware of himself as a being, instead of a being only in relation to being Angel. By abandoning Heaven, Castiel has primed himself to slowly become human. By binding himself to a vessel, Castiel has removed the genderless sect of his self by obtaining a sex. By disowning Heaven, Castiel has forcefully broken the control he once had over his vessel and ultimately, true self. While Castiel is reluctant to let the ideal image of an Angel go, the more human he becomes the more susceptible to desire and needs he becomes.
The adoption of a sex and gender though does little to change how Castiel perceives intercourse. On a basic level, Castiel understands the logistics of sex, how humans need it, but fails to recognize the social implications and significance of the act; feeling as though it is still something beyond his own self. On a deep, personal level, Castiel is asexual but with a newly inherited body with demands of its own, an Angel with little thoughts on gender or sex, Castiel is pansexual. Castiel's views on humanity, and all of Earth as his Father's creation, is something Castiel retained from his time spent as an Angel. Castiel does not view people in light of gender, sex, creed, or race; but on a more spiritual level as he tries to view himself. What Castiel is drawn to when pertaining to a partner, friendship or otherwise, is virtue. Corporeal aspects to a person are secondary to Castiel. Despite the openness Castiel views the occupants of Earth with, Castiel still retains an idealization of purity and chastity, knowing he can no longer claim either. Castiel identifies himself as an Angel, even while rapidly becoming human. Each time his body craves something new, or his Grace begins to waver, is unpleasant.
Castiel's glorification of the Angel hinders him from discussing each change occurring to both his emotional and physical self. If Castiel admits to craving physical contact, or a burger, or a cup of water, then he is affirming the failing his own ideal self and God's orders, thus, Castiel does not attempt to communicate desires or lusts. With Castiel's denial, the only way to have him acquiesce to something human is to provide Castiel with what he unconsciously wants or needs at any given moment. While Castiel himself is dispassionate about sex, his body is not, and while Castiel does not wish to sleep, drink, or eat, his body must. That said, the change in Castiel does not end with the body, but the mentality on visceral needs as well. The progression of falling from Heaven leads to a conflict between Castiel's perfect self and what he is becoming. While Castiel denies being driven by flesh, he slowly opens up to, and slowly begins to guiltily enjoy, humanity.
betenoire_rp
Age/Appearance: "Do you know the myth about Earth-that-was?
That when she was born, she had no sky, and she was open, inviting and the stars would rush into her, through the skin of her, making the oceans boil with sensation, and when she could endure no more ecstasy, she puffed up her cheeks and blew out the sky, to womb her and keep them at bay, 'til she had rest." (™ Joss Whedon) Castiel's true age is largely unknown. Some speculate he was born at the beginning of time, or only 2000 years ago. Anyone's guess could be correct, for as long as the writing staff of Supernatural keep the information. I play him as being born at the creation of Earth.
History: Season Four and Season Five. If not thorough or detailed enough, a written history is available (though Castiel's pre-series history is largely unknown.)
Personality: Castiel's range of emotions is stunted and his ability to trust has been seriously hindered. Those are two facts about Castiel that should always be known. Even then his inherent sense of blind, often brutal, justice can be mistaken for emotions. To many, Castiel comes off as exactly this: emotionless. There's very little emotional leverage you can gain on Castiel, because Castiel does not open up easily, if at all, and probably just doesn't care about you. The only way for Castiel to actually feel concern (not to be mistaken for loyalty) for something is through extended periods of exposure; trusting that the extended periods of exposure went decently well. Not breaking the rules is a huge thing for Castiel, having been brought up to be completely obedient to his superiors. The only people Castiel has been rendered to be obedient to, through a series of betrayals and dirt-bag moves by his siblings, is himself and his father. Castiel's blind faith in his father is nearly as blind as his sense of right-or-wrong. Even if Castiel is helpful in certain ways, his own agenda, comprised of his own goals searching for his father, comes first. Castiel occasionally extends this loyalty out to other people. If this loyalty has been forged, Castiel becomes self-sacrificial to the point of abandoning things he figured he would never abandon. It's not an easy task to make that connection with Castiel, so be prepared for an extremely rocky ride.
Castiel has absolutely no tact when it comes to any situation. If he doesn't like you, he states it outright. If he likes you, he won't tell you. If he thinks you're untrustworthy, you will know. Castiel is cruel in the sense of he will only inform you of what he doesn't like about you. It's obvious in his body language, verbal and physical, if he likes you. But you'll never really get verbal confirmation about his positive feelings towards you. On top of that, when Castiel says "I'm sorry" he rarely means it and doesn't exactly know what it's like to forgive someone; in return, he doesn't know what it's like to be forgiven. Then again, neither is very important to him. Castiel is not someone who holds grudges; but once he's got one against you prepare to have it for life. And Castiel doesn't care if you like him or not; he's got a mission.
The most emotion you can coerce out of Castiel in any given moment is... straight up deadpan. He's not a friend, he's not really anything and that is made abundantly clear just through his mannerisms. That's all there is, a lackluster sense of humor (meaning he has none) and a seriousness that really can't be cracked. It's a rather severe example of what being an introvert is like. When Castiel can dodge human contact of any sorts, he does. This is one of the many things that renders Castiel extremely awkward in multiple situations. It also doesn't help that he is prime for showing up at the worst time possible. Don't want him to show up? Have some important errands to run? Castiel will show up 75% of the time.
Castiel has a habit of becoming a martyr for certain things. Specifically when something bigger than just himself is happening, Castiel takes it upon himself to do whatever it takes to succeed. This includes giving up his life. If the situation presents itself and there's no other way; Castiel simply steps up to the plate. Its bravery and confidence in himself and the people around him that makes Castiel able to take that step. Castiel's sense of self-preservation isn't exactly up to par, but in his mind he's simply doing what is necessary to win. Be it cutting himself open, betraying the only family he knows, or dying for a cause; Castiel delivers when it really counts.
Castiel is not someone you should approach for help when it comes to personal help. Be it moral or not, Castiel firmly believes you should be capable of helping yourself. He will explicitly state he's not around to help anyone, but around for himself; he's not there to be a friend or "perch on your shoulder." His moral relativity is different from others and Castiel just doesn't want to get tangled up emotionally with that kind of stuff- because he takes morality very seriously.
Sexual Preferences/Orientation: Castiel has lived all of his life as a sexless "perfect" being; the need of a physical body absent in Heaven, as well as the need for communion. In terms of Angels, they are supposed to be emotionless; the perfect soldier; which means the acts of love, lust, and other preludes to coupling are inherently absent to an Angels being. There has never been a need for Castiel to experience or have an opinion on sex, and so he has done neither.
When stationed on Earth, as were Castiel's orders, the fundamentals that kept Castiel from wanting sexual relations or having sexual preferences, started to come undone. With long exposure to humanity, to Dean and Sam Winchester along with the demon Ruby, a Fallen Angel Anna, and others, Castiel started feeling emotions and doubts. Castiel becomes aware of sex, in relation to Angels and thus himself, when previously mentioned former boss, Anna, engages in a physical (and arguably emotional) relationship with Dean, Castiel's charge. While Castiel knows that Anna is fallen, he sees her as something of an example; and Angel who has won regard from Dean and can feel emotional bonds, a quality Angels are absent of but Castiel is starting to register towards the Winchesters. Even once Anna regains her Grace, she retains the ability to feel and this on drags Castiel further into doubt.
It is not until Castiel abandons Heaven that starts becoming aware of himself as a being, instead of a being only in relation to being Angel. By abandoning Heaven, Castiel has primed himself to slowly become human. By binding himself to a vessel, Castiel has removed the genderless sect of his self by obtaining a sex. By disowning Heaven, Castiel has forcefully broken the control he once had over his vessel and ultimately, true self. While Castiel is reluctant to let the ideal image of an Angel go, the more human he becomes the more susceptible to desire and needs he becomes.
The adoption of a sex and gender though does little to change how Castiel perceives intercourse. On a basic level, Castiel understands the logistics of sex, how humans need it, but fails to recognize the social implications and significance of the act; feeling as though it is still something beyond his own self. On a deep, personal level, Castiel is asexual but with a newly inherited body with demands of its own, an Angel with little thoughts on gender or sex, Castiel is pansexual. Castiel's views on humanity, and all of Earth as his Father's creation, is something Castiel retained from his time spent as an Angel. Castiel does not view people in light of gender, sex, creed, or race; but on a more spiritual level as he tries to view himself. What Castiel is drawn to when pertaining to a partner, friendship or otherwise, is virtue. Corporeal aspects to a person are secondary to Castiel. Despite the openness Castiel views the occupants of Earth with, Castiel still retains an idealization of purity and chastity, knowing he can no longer claim either. Castiel identifies himself as an Angel, even while rapidly becoming human. Each time his body craves something new, or his Grace begins to waver, is unpleasant.
Castiel's glorification of the Angel hinders him from discussing each change occurring to both his emotional and physical self. If Castiel admits to craving physical contact, or a burger, or a cup of water, then he is affirming the failing his own ideal self and God's orders, thus, Castiel does not attempt to communicate desires or lusts. With Castiel's denial, the only way to have him acquiesce to something human is to provide Castiel with what he unconsciously wants or needs at any given moment. While Castiel himself is dispassionate about sex, his body is not, and while Castiel does not wish to sleep, drink, or eat, his body must. That said, the change in Castiel does not end with the body, but the mentality on visceral needs as well. The progression of falling from Heaven leads to a conflict between Castiel's perfect self and what he is becoming. While Castiel denies being driven by flesh, he slowly opens up to, and slowly begins to guiltily enjoy, humanity.