i hate change...
hey yall! sorry i havent updated in a while.. i just started reading everyones live journals... and u guys dont understand how much i dont want to leave.. i dont want anyoen to leave! i dont want to go i dont want things to change.... i want everyone here till we can all leave together and go to the same school adn everything will be ok... the first day of school me and jac started crying.. im not trying to make anyone feel bad but u dont understand what u guys leaving has done to us.. i can't handle it anymore.... i cant handle school... parents... teachers... being home and havign free time.. free time just gives me time to think about it...i don' liek crying.. i usually think of myself as a pretty strong person but some things i just cant handle... and i cant help but start thinkign about next year when jac and benji leave???!?! then what am i gonna have!! NOTHING!! everything will be screwed up and ill have nowhere to turn!! im completely freaking out.. i hate waking up and thinkign about teh crappy ass day ahead of me..uch!! everythigns fucked up!!!! ok im out i have hoemwork..good night
much love
marisa
much love
marisa