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I'm so tired of hurting
I'm so tired of missing him
I'm so tired of crying
He's telling me to move on
and I know I should
but my heart won't let me
I'll never meet anyone like him
*how original - the statement made by everyone with a broken heart*
I don't know if I thought it would be this hard
it shoudln't be. It's been over 3 months now
-and hell, I've known it was just a matter of time since September
and it all started with a little kiss almost two years ago
why does he have to be so amazing.
He's turning 30 in November - if it'll ever be possible to get (more) time off work, I'd love to throw him a surprise party for his bd - though I know it probably won't be "good for me" - but again, hopefully I'll be feeling better by then. Hopefully I've even have moved on by then. But he's still my friend - and I just want to see him again - to laugh with him - to talk with him...
Oh well - it will probably remain a dream. I probably won't make it to Sudan till after he's met someone and got married, and then it'll really kill me...
*sigh*
-g'night
[some days are just worse than others - Monday & Tuesday were bad]