For Once In My Life

[mets4life]

Its strange, I usually always just go out to hang out and usually just watch mike's back (just in case anything ever happened) and i always enjoy it but for once matt is going out with him instead of me so i feel a sort of relief that i dont have to go out. i sort of want to but i dont, but than i have nothing better to do and i dont want to be all depressing and just sit around the suite by myself and i guess i understand matt's Point of view last year. if you aren't drinking than it really isnt fun to go out with people that are. im just sort of in limbo with how i feel in general right now, my emotions, my mentality, my physical state im just up in the air with how i feel about everything. some people might call it depression but im not really depressed about anything despite what some people might say.

I dont know..... i can't even explain my feelings right now.