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fhdfjdskfd idk if there is such a thing as reverse s.a.d. but i swear to god summer depression hits me every august and i don't even know why i just feel like a wobbly, volatile mess. period and just starting bc can't be helping, either. anxious for no discernible reason. i burst into tears at nate after he raised his voice at me and then i felt awful, he looked like i'd kicked him in the heart, so, of course, couldn't stop crying and just spiraled completely out of whack off the handle leapt into space and started orbiting the moon of feelings and just. fhdsjfsdfjd. god why. why the actual fuck. i'm usually so well-adjusted and fffffff. but i'm listening to hipster music and it's helping a little and i just. will hopefully feel better soon, because this is just not fun at all. :\ idk i am just afraid that everyone is angry with me right now a little, maybe, because they're busy and sort of business and i'm apparently thin-skinned enough that it's bothering me. just. woeful feelings of girlfriend/friendship inadequacy. :\

also our fridge broke today and i was the lucky duck who got to clean out the food that had spoiled so that was awesome fun. 8|

but otherwise today was lovely! i made banana bread in the morning and nate and i made dinner in the afternoon and watched olympics and played starcraft, which i am woefully bad at, but maybe i will get better a little.

i am so tired i need to be in bed NO WONDER I'M ACTING LIKE A LOON okay good night, darlings, love you dearly. ♥ sorry for feelin's all over, i owe you one.