I dont know....
It just seems like the same old shit, same old day, another way through the maze...
Thursday night I ran a pretty good 800m-especially for the first race since early December-over a month ago. Today the 800m again, as well as the 1200m leg of the DMR...we all are not in 100% game shape as of yet...though I'm positive that will change in due time....
My times weren't even that far off...I was probably not fully recovered and most likely. But that's all good and well...Track is probably the thing that's going well right now...
Work has been ok; I start my FINAL semester of college Monday
That's a scary thought....Graduation from College
I mean...I remember when I graduated High School and everything was all fine and dandy; I had NO CLUE what would be in store for me. I figured I would graduate, I had a band, I had a wonderful girlfriend, no job but I was trying to find one! so I wasn't a slacker. Wasn't really running, I figured I was so spent and burned out from my senior year of track that I could have possibly continued, but that loss to Pawling just ended that fire that burned inside. I even started to run again, only to stop due to a horrible sickness I sustained after the Warped Tour. And of course, we all know what happened after that Sunny, Warm, August afternoon....
I know things have gotten alot better since August of 2005...I just can't believe its been about four years...
Although this time around it sure is different, but in a way its actually better that way. I think I'm more amazed that everything that went on ONLY ocurred in four years;
So I don't know, one more semester until graduation at the end of May. Follow that by the graduation party, the fact I'll still be working, but the official ending of competition for Track...
I hope to go out better than I did four years ago...that's for sure. And, well yeah, at times I don't want to compete and train, I'd rather be coaching or doing something along those lines, but after days like today, I am gonna miss it. It's just werid how I wend to JJC then to Mercy, swtiched majors like 5 times, got back into shape, raced again, switched events even, did Cross Country even, had a job for almost three years at Best Buy only to leave it at a down point to find a suitable job replacement at Royal Coach working in the District, and now I'll be getting another diploma; this one will give me a bachelors degree in something....
I could do Grad School, maybe, but I need to 1) Pick a topic, 2) Pick a school, 3) Decide if I want to use eligibility while in Grad School, and 4) Decide if I do it soon, or never....I don't want to go back way late in my life, It's either Fall of '09 or Spring of '10. Then factor in if I go to UALBS will I race, or what? If i stay at Mercy I can finish up the Grad School and the eligibility, however, all my firneds will be gone, the team won't be the same. Nothing against the younger classmen returning but I spent most my time with that team chilling with Tommy, Stompy, Danny, Katelyn...Two of them already graduated, the other two graduate with me...I just wouldn't enjoy the meets with the people I like live with not being there...
I could look for a coaching vacancy...at Stepinac, or with Stompy over at Holy Child..maybe the Byram Hills job will be open again? who knows? I think it would be time to move on and start a new chapter when that road comes to passing..the crossroads are far away, for now, as its pure highway from here to the eye can see...
I feel alot better writing in the LJ again, lol...I don't know why...
I gotta do what I do, work, school, practice, run, yadda yadda yadda....
and enjoy it..because life is too short to not live up and enjoy...I've come a long way in such a short time, it just feels right...
I mean theres not as much stress, unless its called for...but no nonsense excess Bullshit, no drama, no depression, just the right frame of mind...I guess Track saved my life...you could say...
I mean people ask me, "don't you kinda wish you were young again?" and I think about that question, and I analyze it:
How far back? how young? from day one to about 12 I say hell no, so different with what I did, how I spent my days, who I talked to, etc...High School? same thing, I still have most of hte same friends, the usual hang outs, the same hobbies, etc...I can drive, i'm 21, gonna be 22 soon..it's just that perfect time in life...and if you got the job you like, its not work at all really....
So again, it's just set up so nice and neat almost...yet theres those few voids that I tend to ponder about...
But I guess everything happens for a reason....
Is there a few people I wish I still talked to??? of course...I tend to think it only makes things better if we did talk...but I guess we all have our reasons...and I'm not the type that's gonna go running up doors, bang on them, and demand a conversation!!! Who am I? A Republican? Fuck no...
I'd just like to be like "hey! whats up?" but I'm sure that would cause WWIII...
...just realized I've been watching Wrestling for 10 years...wow...lol..even THAT has changed over the years...New Yankee Stadium, MSG, Giants Stadium...it's all being upgraded for the better...
Yeah...I think I'm about done here...I tend to feel old, at times...lol
Thursday night I ran a pretty good 800m-especially for the first race since early December-over a month ago. Today the 800m again, as well as the 1200m leg of the DMR...we all are not in 100% game shape as of yet...though I'm positive that will change in due time....
My times weren't even that far off...I was probably not fully recovered and most likely. But that's all good and well...Track is probably the thing that's going well right now...
Work has been ok; I start my FINAL semester of college Monday
That's a scary thought....Graduation from College
I mean...I remember when I graduated High School and everything was all fine and dandy; I had NO CLUE what would be in store for me. I figured I would graduate, I had a band, I had a wonderful girlfriend, no job but I was trying to find one! so I wasn't a slacker. Wasn't really running, I figured I was so spent and burned out from my senior year of track that I could have possibly continued, but that loss to Pawling just ended that fire that burned inside. I even started to run again, only to stop due to a horrible sickness I sustained after the Warped Tour. And of course, we all know what happened after that Sunny, Warm, August afternoon....
I know things have gotten alot better since August of 2005...I just can't believe its been about four years...
Although this time around it sure is different, but in a way its actually better that way. I think I'm more amazed that everything that went on ONLY ocurred in four years;
So I don't know, one more semester until graduation at the end of May. Follow that by the graduation party, the fact I'll still be working, but the official ending of competition for Track...
I hope to go out better than I did four years ago...that's for sure. And, well yeah, at times I don't want to compete and train, I'd rather be coaching or doing something along those lines, but after days like today, I am gonna miss it. It's just werid how I wend to JJC then to Mercy, swtiched majors like 5 times, got back into shape, raced again, switched events even, did Cross Country even, had a job for almost three years at Best Buy only to leave it at a down point to find a suitable job replacement at Royal Coach working in the District, and now I'll be getting another diploma; this one will give me a bachelors degree in something....
I could do Grad School, maybe, but I need to 1) Pick a topic, 2) Pick a school, 3) Decide if I want to use eligibility while in Grad School, and 4) Decide if I do it soon, or never....I don't want to go back way late in my life, It's either Fall of '09 or Spring of '10. Then factor in if I go to UALBS will I race, or what? If i stay at Mercy I can finish up the Grad School and the eligibility, however, all my firneds will be gone, the team won't be the same. Nothing against the younger classmen returning but I spent most my time with that team chilling with Tommy, Stompy, Danny, Katelyn...Two of them already graduated, the other two graduate with me...I just wouldn't enjoy the meets with the people I like live with not being there...
I could look for a coaching vacancy...at Stepinac, or with Stompy over at Holy Child..maybe the Byram Hills job will be open again? who knows? I think it would be time to move on and start a new chapter when that road comes to passing..the crossroads are far away, for now, as its pure highway from here to the eye can see...
I feel alot better writing in the LJ again, lol...I don't know why...
I gotta do what I do, work, school, practice, run, yadda yadda yadda....
and enjoy it..because life is too short to not live up and enjoy...I've come a long way in such a short time, it just feels right...
I mean theres not as much stress, unless its called for...but no nonsense excess Bullshit, no drama, no depression, just the right frame of mind...I guess Track saved my life...you could say...
I mean people ask me, "don't you kinda wish you were young again?" and I think about that question, and I analyze it:
How far back? how young? from day one to about 12 I say hell no, so different with what I did, how I spent my days, who I talked to, etc...High School? same thing, I still have most of hte same friends, the usual hang outs, the same hobbies, etc...I can drive, i'm 21, gonna be 22 soon..it's just that perfect time in life...and if you got the job you like, its not work at all really....
So again, it's just set up so nice and neat almost...yet theres those few voids that I tend to ponder about...
But I guess everything happens for a reason....
Is there a few people I wish I still talked to??? of course...I tend to think it only makes things better if we did talk...but I guess we all have our reasons...and I'm not the type that's gonna go running up doors, bang on them, and demand a conversation!!! Who am I? A Republican? Fuck no...
I'd just like to be like "hey! whats up?" but I'm sure that would cause WWIII...
...just realized I've been watching Wrestling for 10 years...wow...lol..even THAT has changed over the years...New Yankee Stadium, MSG, Giants Stadium...it's all being upgraded for the better...
Yeah...I think I'm about done here...I tend to feel old, at times...lol