Entry #C-6: "Chains"

[meticulous_grey]

1. I'm still a white feather, even though it's a little hard to tell. I was entitled to what I gave B and I hope he wears that mark for a long time.

2. I'm on the mend, even though I'm still in this confounded wheelchair.

3. I'm still engaged to Alice no matter what she tries to tell herself or sacrifice for some greater good

Comments

[b_before_l]

If you don't want the painkillers, I will take them. My parents' sleeping pills didn't work, but maybe they would.

I wear my mark proudly, L. I prefer our feelings toward each other to be out in the open. Maybe I'll wear a shirt that puts the scar I will surely have on display. That would be nice. You're precious Alice will see how you are nowhere near the coward she is when it comes to causing lasting physical pain.

However, both of you are still too cowardly to face the results of what you cause, I'm sure. Old dogs never change. However, I am still young enough to do so. I will be changing quite a lot soon.

I have no reason to haunt you anymore with my appearance. I will not dress like you any longer. Once I recover, I will be Beyond...Not B.

[meticulous_grey]

Alice will not be close enough to you to see the color of your shirt, much less what it reveals.

Maybe you feel you can change, but burned bridges can't be rebuilt. I hope you realize that.

[b_before_l]

I don't plan to rebuild anything. I plan to make new ones. Why rebuild something that will only cause more suffering?

You'll be surprised how close I can get to Alice if she keeps pushing me. I suggest you keep your bitch on a leash.

[meticulous_grey]

Once a bridge-burner, always a bridge-burner. You say you can change, but I don't believe you.

I agree. But I didn't think that you considered yourself my bitch anymore, B.

[b_before_l]

I'll just have to prove you wrong now, won't I?

Oh, so you'll get near enough to me to put a leash on me? I'd like to see that. Your humor is quite dissatisfying and cliche, however. You should work on it. There could have been many more creative responses to that.

Besides, I am definitely not the equivalent of a 'bitch' to you. You think you truly had control over me? If you did, then why did you let me do such horrible things to all those people, including you? You have just about as much control over me as my parents do and..oh, wait, I just remembered! They're dead! Oh, my..you have very little control, then. Maybe you should work on that. You're not a very good trainer at all, are you?

[meticulous_grey]

You know? Some people just aren't worth the effort.

[b_before_l]

Heh. Worth enough effort to carve kanji in my chest but not enough to talk to? Oh, you're so hurtful! I honestly don't see what I saw in you...You're no challenge at all.

[meticulous_grey]

It was no trouble at all, to mutilate you. It was easy. Knives are remarkably simple, as is taking life, as is hurting others.

I still have my sanity. For that, I must remember that I am truly blessed, and that you are a creature to be pitied rather than stoned.

[b_before_l]

Yes, it's simple. Which is why I tend to want to spruce it up a bit with puzzles and such to make it more complicated. It's an art.

Pity. Hm...if you say so... I believe I prefer insanity over pretending to be 'sane.' Besides, we're all insane here... Most people just don't see when they're in such a state.