Fic: A World Deformed

[methylethyl]

Title: A World Deformed
Author: methylethyl 
Rating: R
Summary: Sometimes, Justin thinks that maybe, somewhere along the way, Brian became one of those pieces of the normal world that he's infected, cut out and chained to his little fucked-up world. He doesn't know if it's a nightmare or a fantasy. 
Author's Notes: An exploration into Justin's transition from

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[highd]

I had a friend in college who was an artist. He was the type of artist that if he had a problem he would go outside find a leaf and tell the leaf his problem and let it free in the wind.

He was also a great painter. He had a rough childhood, one that he had trouble letting go of, so he used it in his work. He used all that anger and contempt, and created some of the most awe inspiring works. When you watched him you never knew if he was exorcising demons or having a seizure.

His parents made him see someone in our sophomore year of school. He knew that they would put him on medication, so he resisted for a year and gave in. They put him on lithium. You have described almost to a T how Fred felt.

He said that it was like he lived in two worlds now, the one before the drugs and the one after. There were times when I would go to watch him paint, and you could see the moment the lithium took effect. It was heartbreaking seeing the wall come down and his post drug world showed it self through sluggish stokes and apprehension, knowing any moment he would have to stop walk away and come back to his canvas later.

Sorry about the crazy feedback. I haven't thought of Fred in years. This was perfect.